its all coming together
UCLA what an experience. Since being here I am so different but very much so the same. I still look 12 and act younger. I like my youthfulness, its about living with passion, maybe that's what being young is all about. I have grown up though in so many other areas that were in need of maturation. I came in here, judgemental, biassed, and resistant to change. Since being here I have overcome a great deal of that. Things are looking up as the calendar turns toward spring. I am rushing AEPI, Beta didn't work out. Most guys at beta were nice enough but I never really felt accepted and I think I came across as thinking i'm too good for you. Not my intention. But I haven't thought one time since accepting the bid "what the fuck did i just do?" which i consistently did in my time at betas.
THe girl situation is stagnat. BLANK is still my only success but for some paculiar reason i have hope. i feel like i can meet someone here this quarter. most likely not date but have fun and see what happens. I am excited for the road ahead here.
Classes are alright, I love being on north campus more, not the classes and the material but the girls. they are hot.
i'm getting set to go on acutane to get rid of theses fucken zits. i'm pretty happy about that but it says i can't drink and it could stunt my growth. I refuse to believe that i am done growing and perhaps a break from the booze would do me good. I've partied so much this year and rocked it all, but i could use some detox.
I have made friends over the course of the year that i feel have potential to reach (i hate to do this) home-friend status. I wish that mike, josh, rob, yamz, paul, ben, nate and rob were down here experiencing this with me. i feel like they would love it down here and how tight would it be for us to rock so-cal together. but i'm ready to live in the present now, they'll be my boyz for life but i have to accept that they aren't here and people don't wanna hear about our escapades.
O-dog has a boo now and so he is having a ton of sex. How do i feel about it? I am not personally a fan of man-sex, but i'm happy that he's getting bootey. More importantly i'm jealous that he has that connection with someone whether or not its another guy the connection between them is real and i want to find mine. I've always felt like corey without a topanga to go tgif on abc on you. O-dog i hope you and N works out as long as you want it to.
KK. I still have so many feelings there that i'm so afraid to act on. i think its best if i don't. i would love to see her over the summer and maybe just be friends. FUCK THAT i still want her. But i'm making strides in being able to picture myself with someone else. I don't know what it is about theater girls, they just have that sweet innocence about them. While we were getting high and drunk they were singing infront of a piano. The moral supremacy of theater girls is such a turn on. KC is pretty hot too. she may take number 1 at UCLA status from AO. A bonus there is that i have now had a conversation with KC.
Anyways, thats the update . Why do i always bring up that girl in my ljs? Hope all who read this find their own theater girl or any other kind which does it for them.
THe girl situation is stagnat. BLANK is still my only success but for some paculiar reason i have hope. i feel like i can meet someone here this quarter. most likely not date but have fun and see what happens. I am excited for the road ahead here.
Classes are alright, I love being on north campus more, not the classes and the material but the girls. they are hot.
i'm getting set to go on acutane to get rid of theses fucken zits. i'm pretty happy about that but it says i can't drink and it could stunt my growth. I refuse to believe that i am done growing and perhaps a break from the booze would do me good. I've partied so much this year and rocked it all, but i could use some detox.
I have made friends over the course of the year that i feel have potential to reach (i hate to do this) home-friend status. I wish that mike, josh, rob, yamz, paul, ben, nate and rob were down here experiencing this with me. i feel like they would love it down here and how tight would it be for us to rock so-cal together. but i'm ready to live in the present now, they'll be my boyz for life but i have to accept that they aren't here and people don't wanna hear about our escapades.
O-dog has a boo now and so he is having a ton of sex. How do i feel about it? I am not personally a fan of man-sex, but i'm happy that he's getting bootey. More importantly i'm jealous that he has that connection with someone whether or not its another guy the connection between them is real and i want to find mine. I've always felt like corey without a topanga to go tgif on abc on you. O-dog i hope you and N works out as long as you want it to.
KK. I still have so many feelings there that i'm so afraid to act on. i think its best if i don't. i would love to see her over the summer and maybe just be friends. FUCK THAT i still want her. But i'm making strides in being able to picture myself with someone else. I don't know what it is about theater girls, they just have that sweet innocence about them. While we were getting high and drunk they were singing infront of a piano. The moral supremacy of theater girls is such a turn on. KC is pretty hot too. she may take number 1 at UCLA status from AO. A bonus there is that i have now had a conversation with KC.
Anyways, thats the update . Why do i always bring up that girl in my ljs? Hope all who read this find their own theater girl or any other kind which does it for them.