girlz
Its been said before, but i'll say it again, "i don't get them." In my case this can be understood in two ways: the first is that I simply don't understand them, I don't know the way they think and I don't know when they are just being friends or flirting. Rule of thumb then should probly be David, if they're talking with you, then its just being friends. The second way is that I seriously don't get them. I mean get as in aquiring. I admit my efforts could be much greater in this area, but I don't wanna come off as creepy and have them thinking "eewwh, wha the fuck are u doing." This isn't just about sex, though that is much of it. This is about having that close connection with someone, knowing she cares about you, and having her know you care as well.
There are guys here who pull in girls all the time, and I'm just as good looking or funny as them. I don't get it. What i have to stop doing though is comparing the girls here to the girl. Because no one can live up to her. There are girls here in so cal who are bombshells and some of them may be nice too, but no one has the elegance of not knowing how amazing they are. Sometimes, i feel confident enough to approach them randomly but then i realize, what do i have that gives me the invitation. NOTHING.
Basically, I'm sexually frustrated, my penis hates me for not trying (yes this is a joke... sort of...errr), and I can't stop comparing them to her.
I wonder if she ever thinks about me. Maybe during class she'll randomly have a thought concerning me, or when she's listening to music, a song will remind her of me. The answer is probly maybe not. I wanna talk to her, I'm so much different than when we were last together (i mean in the same room, not "together"), i wanna take what i've learned here and apply it to her. I do have a bit more confidence than when i left for college, maybe that's what i needed. Why does this always turn into a blog about her!!!
Like i said though, there are tons of beautiful girls, here and i know that i'm the perfect catch, so when the fuck will they??
There are guys here who pull in girls all the time, and I'm just as good looking or funny as them. I don't get it. What i have to stop doing though is comparing the girls here to the girl. Because no one can live up to her. There are girls here in so cal who are bombshells and some of them may be nice too, but no one has the elegance of not knowing how amazing they are. Sometimes, i feel confident enough to approach them randomly but then i realize, what do i have that gives me the invitation. NOTHING.
Basically, I'm sexually frustrated, my penis hates me for not trying (yes this is a joke... sort of...errr), and I can't stop comparing them to her.
I wonder if she ever thinks about me. Maybe during class she'll randomly have a thought concerning me, or when she's listening to music, a song will remind her of me. The answer is probly maybe not. I wanna talk to her, I'm so much different than when we were last together (i mean in the same room, not "together"), i wanna take what i've learned here and apply it to her. I do have a bit more confidence than when i left for college, maybe that's what i needed. Why does this always turn into a blog about her!!!
Like i said though, there are tons of beautiful girls, here and i know that i'm the perfect catch, so when the fuck will they??