well...
so my mom once again deprives me of my youth... and she wants to talk about it.. look i dont wanna talk to her.. she makes me.. furious.. depressed.. anxious.. cold.. lower my self esteem.. jus fuckin sad.. i kno i may not talk about how she makes me happy but damn.. this one jus really did it.. she doesnt let me go to the beach cuz she EGH.. whatevr.. so now she says i can only see someone special once a week.. and kinda like she doesnt want me with him.. and no more friends cuz my grades suck.. umm i have all A's and B's wut is that.. dood im soo depressed after her tellin me this.. i just put shoes on and left.. i got up outta bed from crying & i left.. i walked about 2 blocks away parked my ass on the grounded and couldnt stop crying.. infact im still crying.. shit how does she want me to feel.. she is tryin to take my friends and boyfriend away from me.. like saying they arent good for me.. makin him feel like shit when i tell him whats up.. so now he thinks its good for a break.. what the fuck man.. how does she do that to me.. how does she allow it for the past 7 months and friends b4.. but now.. she wants to take it all outta my hands.. my heart.. my soul.. what is this.. what pain is this.. who could create pain like this.. like i dont kno what she is thinkin.. i mean how she have felt when she was SOO in love wit my dad.. and someone told her what she told me.. i kno she would have nothin to say.. im sooo damn hurt i jus wanna curl up into a ball and sit under my bed and cry.. i hate how she is makin me feel right now.. how she is not only hurting me but others.. and she has the balls to ask me " why are you crying".. r u kidding me.. i kno im not the only one have these problems but i swear it feels like it.. i dont wanna b home right now.. the beach would have been nice.. but i wasnt allowed to go there.. probably cant go wit kerry either cuz thats like social time that i guess i need to study instead.. probably cant go the gym either cuz some one will b there.. FUCK HER