Dying Changes Everything - House S05x01
So... last season, Amber dies, and Wilson sobs all over her, and I feel... absolutely nothing. I tried, I really did.
But "I'm sorry..." and "Amber was never the reason I was leaving..." and it goes on, and I am this close to tears, and WTF show. I don't know if it's me being all gratuitously sentimental, or if it's because RSL has cheekbones again and is doing the not-crying so very, very hard or if it's the way House is just staring at him after having laid it all on the table or what, but GUH. Way to kill me without warning. And if you didn't think Wilson was this close to declaring how much he loved House in spite of all reason, there's no hope for you *g*
The ending was like the best fanfic ever, and I mean that in the way good fanfic makes you feel for the characters. And I think Wilson's right in the sense that he feels that if he'd been a 'real' friend, House would be not as much of an miserable bastard as he is today. And House has always made such a point of finding an angle on how best to use Wilson - for food, for entertainment, for prescriptions, for deflecting Cuddy - that he tends to forget that he's a person, not a chess piece. He does also care about Wilson as a person, but he's spent so much time hiding that part that it's second nature to him now. And then it's all too little, too late. Ouch.
Medical stuff: Mostly boring. New fellows: Also mostly boring. Sorry.
But I'm going to take the POTW's attitude as comfort rather than contrast. Sure, Wilson thinks he'll change, go off and do something else, but in the end he'll come right back and be with House, because that's where he belongs. And any replacement House is going to attempt to get will "flame out" just as surely as POTW's replacement did. And maybe Wilson will carve out more of a life for himself, get some broader interests beside House, but in the end he might not essentially "want [House] to change". At least not too much. Because maybe it's all part of who House is. And Wilson would rather "spend his life close to the birds, than waste it wishing [he] had wings." They're not okay right now, but in time they will be again.
The only thing that really worries me about the analogy is that if we take it too far it means that when Wilson does finally comes back he'll feel much better but be significantly less pretty *g*. I kid because I care way too much.
Thanks, show, for the awesome ♥
But "I'm sorry..." and "Amber was never the reason I was leaving..." and it goes on, and I am this close to tears, and WTF show. I don't know if it's me being all gratuitously sentimental, or if it's because RSL has cheekbones again and is doing the not-crying so very, very hard or if it's the way House is just staring at him after having laid it all on the table or what, but GUH. Way to kill me without warning. And if you didn't think Wilson was this close to declaring how much he loved House in spite of all reason, there's no hope for you *g*
The ending was like the best fanfic ever, and I mean that in the way good fanfic makes you feel for the characters. And I think Wilson's right in the sense that he feels that if he'd been a 'real' friend, House would be not as much of an miserable bastard as he is today. And House has always made such a point of finding an angle on how best to use Wilson - for food, for entertainment, for prescriptions, for deflecting Cuddy - that he tends to forget that he's a person, not a chess piece. He does also care about Wilson as a person, but he's spent so much time hiding that part that it's second nature to him now. And then it's all too little, too late. Ouch.
Medical stuff: Mostly boring. New fellows: Also mostly boring. Sorry.
But I'm going to take the POTW's attitude as comfort rather than contrast. Sure, Wilson thinks he'll change, go off and do something else, but in the end he'll come right back and be with House, because that's where he belongs. And any replacement House is going to attempt to get will "flame out" just as surely as POTW's replacement did. And maybe Wilson will carve out more of a life for himself, get some broader interests beside House, but in the end he might not essentially "want [House] to change". At least not too much. Because maybe it's all part of who House is. And Wilson would rather "spend his life close to the birds, than waste it wishing [he] had wings." They're not okay right now, but in time they will be again.
The only thing that really worries me about the analogy is that if we take it too far it means that when Wilson does finally comes back he'll feel much better but be significantly less pretty *g*. I kid because I care way too much.
Thanks, show, for the awesome ♥