MY TALK WITH JORGE
Well ok i did as Olivia told me ..::WAIT TILL TOMMORROW::.. i waited and today i called him he said that he taught that i needed time to figure out what i felt for him and that he didn't play my childish games anymore. He didn't say itjust like that but thats what i took it like! i told him that he was all fulla shit since the beginning cuz he never really liked me. As always he told me LISTEN TO ME so i did and w/e all i know is that i told him twice he was fulla shit and that if he really loved me like he said he wold believe me and not my brother. Everytime i finish talking to him or while im talking to him i feel like crying i dont know why because i dont LOVE him i just think hes kinda cute. Man i wouldn't be able to not talk to him even if its just as friends he makes me feel sooo much better and he never makes me feel sad i dont know why but he actually cares for me. at first i taught it wass all a lie but yesturday i saw it in his eyes man when my brother told him that i had alot of boyfriends he was teary i taught he was gonna cry. man i taught i was gonna cry i was brave enuf to hold my tears till he left like 5 times i felt a tear drop and right away i wiped it away so he didn't notice. i think as hard as he tries to say we donesn't want anything with me i know that deep inside he really does how could he not ok well he was with me till like 11 and the whole roger thing happened like at 10 he was tlaking to me for one more hour and he looked at me soooo unexplainable man he didn't seem mad and then when he said sometihng about my ""other boyfriends" i got mad and he was like trying to cheer me up so i think he cant deny it to himself. AND for the we need some times it had only been 3 days! im going to keep on asking for him to belive me cuz i really hate how it is right now its only been 1 day and i feel torn apart. when we were talking on the fone he made me feel like i was soo mean and bad. ok i need to stop cuz ima start crying again