*sigh*
behind a cut because the ep doesn't air on NBC for another hour
Today was...today was a long day. To be honest I think the only day that's been longer was the day I was in labor, but today didn't have a good ending. Or depending how you look at it, it did.
I've never killed anyone before, at least not by my own hand. Sure, I've helped get people sentanced to death, but...it's not the same thing. I feel bad about every one, but shooting someone? Seeing the look in his eyes as he dropped? If I never have to experiance that again, it'll be too soon.
Yes, he was going to kill me. Yes, it was self defense, but I still feel bad about it.
And I feel bad about the way I left Garret, but not as bad. He's the one who refused to talk to me for so long, and then only referred to me as Ms. Walcott. The hug was just...I couldn't do it. I froze up. I mean, yes, I'm the one who...well, you know, but...*sigh* I guess thinking we could be friends was hoping too much.
The look in his eyes though, when I said I had to get home because of the nanny...it was like a knife to my heart.
Maybe if i hadn't been so...stupid.
Maybe.
Just maybe.
ooc: Months ago, Renee slept with her ex, and got pregnant, she's had the kid (obviously) and when she told Garret while she was still pregnant, he sort of...freaked. To say the least. Unless I missed it, there;s been no mention of the sex of the baby, so until I know different, I'm going with it's a girl.
Today was...today was a long day. To be honest I think the only day that's been longer was the day I was in labor, but today didn't have a good ending. Or depending how you look at it, it did.
I've never killed anyone before, at least not by my own hand. Sure, I've helped get people sentanced to death, but...it's not the same thing. I feel bad about every one, but shooting someone? Seeing the look in his eyes as he dropped? If I never have to experiance that again, it'll be too soon.
Yes, he was going to kill me. Yes, it was self defense, but I still feel bad about it.
And I feel bad about the way I left Garret, but not as bad. He's the one who refused to talk to me for so long, and then only referred to me as Ms. Walcott. The hug was just...I couldn't do it. I froze up. I mean, yes, I'm the one who...well, you know, but...*sigh* I guess thinking we could be friends was hoping too much.
The look in his eyes though, when I said I had to get home because of the nanny...it was like a knife to my heart.
Maybe if i hadn't been so...stupid.
Maybe.
Just maybe.
ooc: Months ago, Renee slept with her ex, and got pregnant, she's had the kid (obviously) and when she told Garret while she was still pregnant, he sort of...freaked. To say the least. Unless I missed it, there;s been no mention of the sex of the baby, so until I know different, I'm going with it's a girl.