Day 5 in LA
Well, I'm here. Things are very muddled in my head right now, so some bullet point thoughts to elaborate on later.
I really need to learn to stop shooting myself in the foot. The ways in which I shoot myself in the foot seem to be getting subtler, so maybe I am getting better about it... But I don't feel like I've learned very much...
Friends come and go. Emphasis on the go.
Writing things off is really damned hard.
Trying too hard is just as bad as not trying hard enough.
Disappointment is what happens when you get your hopes up. Apathy is what happens when you don't. Not sure which I prefer right now.
I crumble when I get nervous. I fall right the fuck apart.
I get nervous when I get insecure. And when I get lonely. And when I get tired. And when I deal with asshole customers at work.
I feel like there are a lot of improvements in myself and my attitudes, I just can't really think about them when I'm bummed.
Honest-to-god update coming soon, I promise. I just haven't been able to write much of anything lately, I'm at a complete block.
I really need to learn to stop shooting myself in the foot. The ways in which I shoot myself in the foot seem to be getting subtler, so maybe I am getting better about it... But I don't feel like I've learned very much...
Friends come and go. Emphasis on the go.
Writing things off is really damned hard.
Trying too hard is just as bad as not trying hard enough.
Disappointment is what happens when you get your hopes up. Apathy is what happens when you don't. Not sure which I prefer right now.
I crumble when I get nervous. I fall right the fuck apart.
I get nervous when I get insecure. And when I get lonely. And when I get tired. And when I deal with asshole customers at work.
I feel like there are a lot of improvements in myself and my attitudes, I just can't really think about them when I'm bummed.
Honest-to-god update coming soon, I promise. I just haven't been able to write much of anything lately, I'm at a complete block.