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helens getting secoened...never thoguht it woulkd come to this..doctors have all been to see her and they are putting her away? my mum...the woman i have hated for years the moman i told on the phone i loved her for the fisrt time in about 4 years pitty fills my hole head. I hope this is the best thing for her. I want her to be better, i tryed to tell her i need her to go to the doctors cause i can't handle anythings that happing to me and i need her to be well to be a mother to me (selfish but blunt) She told me i had to change my name, or get married as soon as i could or bad things..fucked my head right up, also her telling me its up to her whether she eats or not. nahh i think not your'ull eat and stay alive if it kills me, i can't handle anymore guilt if she did anything..i don't wanna think about it i'm trying to get thoughts out my head by doing this don't think it's helping..maybe it is? fuck knows. i'm trying not to think about tickles birthday..get a nasty feeling in my tummy can't think about any of this stuff...just pordent it's not real push it to the back of my mind. no dout it will all repear when i'm 30 and give me a nervouse brackdown..if i'm not already having one.
bugger all. got to get ready to get Rosie will be lovly to see her. I'm going to conertrate on Rosie and forget the bad shit...
bugger all. got to get ready to get Rosie will be lovly to see her. I'm going to conertrate on Rosie and forget the bad shit...