why did i bother
it was a stupid thing to do i knew it was.
go back to the house of hell run by my mother.shes lost the plot, much worse then i imagened she was. she spent the hold time i was there shoutting out the windows (i don't know who to if anyone) useing her finger to write pomes on bits of paper and the computer, fallowing me about, stealign my fags when i left the roomtalkign to the radio,she phoned the bbc to complane about a preatcher on sky diggy (STUPID! bbc have fuck all to do with sky!) also what teh fuck is it to do with you if sumone wants to talka bout god on tv it;'s nothign to do with you!ahhhhh
it was soo fucking stressful she bitched at me
had a mini fit which went a bit like this
"NO ....NO NONoNONO rowan all i'm saying is NOOOOO.......i just herd your thoughts"
i felt horrabile beign there cuase i didn't feel confurertbel there but didn't want to coem back here cuase i would have felt shite here too.when the fuck will i fell okayish. just a okayish feeling would do!i felt like i wasn't ment to be there,like i was in the wrong house and it scared me.pete was angry with helen and grumpy with me.she was batty and anoyed me. i hated beign back in my old room felt liek i was sleepign in a room of a forgotten sumone that wasn't me.like i was beig giving the gurging permisttion to sleep in a room of a favrate gran child. was odd and scary i sat awake for hours hten went downstairs and hacked in to my mothers computer there was no one online so i sat awake up stairs for more time. was so crap
every time i got up for water or anything she was st her door watchign me asking me what i was doing.
need sum time.
quiting my cours tomorrow cause it'sa crap and i've failed it. it's crap boring i'm rambloing and making lots of mistakes.
buggeration.
whats the matter with me way do i do this every time...why do i get this every time?will that always be the case.
go back to the house of hell run by my mother.shes lost the plot, much worse then i imagened she was. she spent the hold time i was there shoutting out the windows (i don't know who to if anyone) useing her finger to write pomes on bits of paper and the computer, fallowing me about, stealign my fags when i left the roomtalkign to the radio,she phoned the bbc to complane about a preatcher on sky diggy (STUPID! bbc have fuck all to do with sky!) also what teh fuck is it to do with you if sumone wants to talka bout god on tv it;'s nothign to do with you!ahhhhh
it was soo fucking stressful she bitched at me
had a mini fit which went a bit like this
"NO ....NO NONoNONO rowan all i'm saying is NOOOOO.......i just herd your thoughts"
i felt horrabile beign there cuase i didn't feel confurertbel there but didn't want to coem back here cuase i would have felt shite here too.when the fuck will i fell okayish. just a okayish feeling would do!i felt like i wasn't ment to be there,like i was in the wrong house and it scared me.pete was angry with helen and grumpy with me.she was batty and anoyed me. i hated beign back in my old room felt liek i was sleepign in a room of a forgotten sumone that wasn't me.like i was beig giving the gurging permisttion to sleep in a room of a favrate gran child. was odd and scary i sat awake for hours hten went downstairs and hacked in to my mothers computer there was no one online so i sat awake up stairs for more time. was so crap
every time i got up for water or anything she was st her door watchign me asking me what i was doing.
need sum time.
quiting my cours tomorrow cause it'sa crap and i've failed it. it's crap boring i'm rambloing and making lots of mistakes.
buggeration.
whats the matter with me way do i do this every time...why do i get this every time?will that always be the case.