Aug 30, 2006 14:55
Hey Jazz
I'm going to get straight to the point. I can't go out with you. I can't bare to hurt my mom or the people around me anymore. You were wonderful to me and thank you for the times that we had. I just can't bare to do this any longer. Please don't e-mail me back or try to contact me about the issue because my parents will call your parents. They are not kidding about that one. Hope we can get through the school year on good terms...
Cindy
This was the first E-mail I read today. So much for rolling out of bed on the right side. heh. Personally, I don't believe that it was Cindy who sent it, for these reasons:
1) Cindy has never been that formal with me, no matter how she was feeling.
2) Why would I care if her parent's called my parents? I just came out to them so it would be easier for us to be together.
3) Cindy always puts something in the subject line if I'm not expecting to get anything, or if she's the one that originally intitiaties a conversation through cox/hotmail.
4) She called me a quarter before nine last night, and this E-mail was sent... oh crap. When we were talking, she told me that I couldn't call through Catherine, or anyone else, because her mom was getting suspicious. But how could her mom have found out and sparked this letter?
5) When I checked my inbox, there was an E-mail from her sister(who hates me as much as her parents, FYI). It was the same one, timestamped for a minute before. Someone would have to copy the one from Secylia's contact, and copy it over to Cindy's. Doesn't that remind of an "Oh crap! I just broke up with my sister's girl friend from MY E-mail address... back button... back button... Whew... it's stil there... copy... paste... sign in as cinbo.. password...?" Doesn't it. But then again, stuff like that always happens with Cindy. Stuff that no one in the world would eeevvveerr do or think of, stupid crap, she'll manage a way to make it happen. It's frustrating.
6) And here's the biggest, most solid reason of them all: She didn't say "I love you." I can't be sure of anything else in the world, but at the end of the day, I can be certain that Cindy loves me with her whole heart.
*shrug* I'm going out of town on Friday, and last night she said she'd call on Thursday. If I don't speak to her until Tuesday, and she affirms the E-mail found above, there's gonna be a girl fight. lol. Not physically, of course. I wouldn't hurt her in anything more than a playful manner, and semi-intentionally. heh.
So, I'm going to carry myself in the same manner that I have for the last five months *cough* more of this end of the five months *cough* until I find out in a more direct way. Yeah, tomorrow is(/would've been?) our anniversary. Why do girls do that? Hannah broke up with me on February 13th, the day before Valentine's Day. Brandi broke my heart the day before my birthday. (OH! The agony. heh.) And now Cindy. Oy. Heterosexuality, anyone? anyone? ...awkward
I'm not too worried about it.
(But if any girl that's been laying low for a while to respect the power of the ring wants to have a bit of a rendezvous, now's your chance!)
Much love,
da_jazz