Breaking Point (not a journal entry but a "one shot" rp)
He didn't get far from Kwan's hosue before he fell out of the air and onto the rooftop of a 4 story office building. He was on his hands and knees and sobbing. It hurt. It hurt so much. He felt like he could just die. He crawled over to an air vent and leaned against it, pulling his knees up to his chest and just kept sobbing. He just couldn't stop. The dam that had held back his emotions earlier was broken and with it his heart and all it emotions.
It wouldn't stop. Why couldn't he stop. His whole body shook with the sobs. The events of the last few minutes replayed over and over in his head...intermingling with his dream. He couldn't take this. He need someone...ANYONE to just hold him and tell him it would be okay. The tears rolled down his cheeks and splashed onto the cold concrete beneath him...he couldn't move to find anyone though.
Kwan! Kwan! God what has he done to you! I couldn't protect you...I couldn't do anything...What good am I if I can't protect the ones I love...what good am I if I can't save him.
He continued to rock in an attempt to comfort himself and because of the powerful sobs that racked his small frame.
You hold no rights to me.
The words echoed in his head. He tried to block them out...he cried out as if in pain and clutched at his head.
You hold no rights to me...You hold no rights to me...You hold no rights to me...no rights...no...no...
"NO!" Danny screamed clutching his head, his nails digging into the skin beneath his hair. He sobbed again and tried to curl up into a tighter ball. His eyes clamped shut...it was like the end of his dream. Everything was shattered. He couldn't take it..he tried to block it out but he couldn't.
He fell over and lay on his side. Too much...it was all too much. He squinched his eyes shut and blocked it all out...his nails digging deeper into his scalp.
"Make it go away. Make it all a dream. Make it not real. Make me wake up. Give me Kwan back. Make it not real," he whimpered to no one. For no one was there and he was all alone.