Children (again)
A friend of the family passed away this weekend. Erin, Aidan, Zane, Grammy and Granddaddy left for New Mexico this morning. Strange thing, I never thought that I would feel the way I do. As I was loading the boys into the car I almost burst into sobs. I was able to limit it to barely teary eyes. I don't think anyone noticed but Erin. I'm not going to see my family for a week.
Everyone says that children will change your life, but only a person that has had a child can know what that means. Without a child I only have the context of my life to date to put that statement into place. I thought "yea yea" and think of sleepless nights and frustration and money and spats with Erin or loved ones, no movies, no dinner out etc. All of these things were self-centered and selfish thoughts. THIS IS NOT A BAD THING!!! I had no choice about what I thought. This is just where I was at that time in my life.
All the things that I thought would change have in-fact changed and many more that I didn't even think about. But that is not what people mean when they say "your life is going to change". I as a person am changing.
more later.
Everyone says that children will change your life, but only a person that has had a child can know what that means. Without a child I only have the context of my life to date to put that statement into place. I thought "yea yea" and think of sleepless nights and frustration and money and spats with Erin or loved ones, no movies, no dinner out etc. All of these things were self-centered and selfish thoughts. THIS IS NOT A BAD THING!!! I had no choice about what I thought. This is just where I was at that time in my life.
All the things that I thought would change have in-fact changed and many more that I didn't even think about. But that is not what people mean when they say "your life is going to change". I as a person am changing.
more later.