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i am beginning to hate everyone. there are so many people i thought were my friends, but since last summer have basically abandoned me (if we have in the last month this doesn't apply to you). everyone that doesn't call me because i don't call them can fuck themselves, because if that is how it is they're just as horrible as they think i am. i have made my efforts. i have left my messages, i'm still waiting the returned calls. i have had possibley the worst year mentally and financially that i have given up. like anne frank i have a little too much faith in the human race. when i first read the quote "Despite everything, I believe that people are really good at heart." it gave me chills, i believed it for so long. i have lost faith in almost everything; my family, most of my friends. with that, i know for a fact i will be leaving this sad sad state as soon as i possibley can. hopefully to somewhere that i can bring my cats and loving boyfriend. sometimes i feel like they are all i really have. i am donezo with my family, i am donezo with emotions. i feel like i'm just spanning time.