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My Friends,
My problem is that I’ve only one life to live and i need at least 10. I fear death. Not in and of itself, but in the sense that it will end my life and so I won’t even have 1. 1 of my 10. I don't believe in God so I do not fear hell, nor do I search for heaven. I try to be a good person, and I think that's possible without religion. To clarify this I still consider myself Jewish. That is something that I both, cannot change, and do not want to change. I want to be too many things and I need to pick only a few. Some of these things may seem unreasonable and maybe some of them are. I doubt we would agree on which fit where in the realm of reasonability. I want to make movies because they are inside of me. Some have stories that are my own and some are other peoples stories that I can make come to life. There is a magic to this I can’t explain. I want to be a rock star, for all the obvious reasons. But even in this I want to be a drummer, a guitarist, a bassist and a lead singer. I want to be a physicist. I hate to sound full of myself here but I see things, theoretical things in a way that know one else I know does. The math is hard for me but the theories in many areas come faster to me than anyone else I know. I don't know if I could further modern physics, but I’d like to find out. I would like to start NGOs. I want to start one on genocide. I've spoken to a few people about this but I haven’t taken any real steps with it yet. I plan to start on it soon. I fear not enough has been learned from past mistakes. Everyone ignores the mistakes of the present and cries later. Fucking hypocrites. It’s time to do something about it. I want to start this regardless of other decisions I make. The Genocide NGO is on my list for sure. I have ideas for others but i don’t care as much about them. I like history and I think it would be a good way for me to earn a BA but I don’t think I’ll stick with it. If I stick with doing a BA at all it will probable be philosophy. I hate my current prof but I refuse to let him turn me off just because he's a fucking moron. I want to have a family but I want to be free to travel. This is something that worries me. I don’t want to have children without a father but i don’t want to be tied down by them. This will be a big choice one day. I'm Thankful i don't need to make it yet. I want to be an architect. I want to be an engineer. I want to compete competitively in sport; alpine snowboard racing specifically. I would also like to compete in squash. I want to be a psychologist so that I can help people. I want to be a lawyer because I find law incredibly interesting. I want to be a politician so I can mould society from the highest Canadian position. I want to live a life that I won't regret when I die.
My problem is that I’ve only one life to live and i need at least 10. I fear death. Not in and of itself, but in the sense that it will end my life and so I won’t even have 1. 1 of my 10. I don't believe in God so I do not fear hell, nor do I search for heaven. I try to be a good person, and I think that's possible without religion. To clarify this I still consider myself Jewish. That is something that I both, cannot change, and do not want to change. I want to be too many things and I need to pick only a few. Some of these things may seem unreasonable and maybe some of them are. I doubt we would agree on which fit where in the realm of reasonability. I want to make movies because they are inside of me. Some have stories that are my own and some are other peoples stories that I can make come to life. There is a magic to this I can’t explain. I want to be a rock star, for all the obvious reasons. But even in this I want to be a drummer, a guitarist, a bassist and a lead singer. I want to be a physicist. I hate to sound full of myself here but I see things, theoretical things in a way that know one else I know does. The math is hard for me but the theories in many areas come faster to me than anyone else I know. I don't know if I could further modern physics, but I’d like to find out. I would like to start NGOs. I want to start one on genocide. I've spoken to a few people about this but I haven’t taken any real steps with it yet. I plan to start on it soon. I fear not enough has been learned from past mistakes. Everyone ignores the mistakes of the present and cries later. Fucking hypocrites. It’s time to do something about it. I want to start this regardless of other decisions I make. The Genocide NGO is on my list for sure. I have ideas for others but i don’t care as much about them. I like history and I think it would be a good way for me to earn a BA but I don’t think I’ll stick with it. If I stick with doing a BA at all it will probable be philosophy. I hate my current prof but I refuse to let him turn me off just because he's a fucking moron. I want to have a family but I want to be free to travel. This is something that worries me. I don’t want to have children without a father but i don’t want to be tied down by them. This will be a big choice one day. I'm Thankful i don't need to make it yet. I want to be an architect. I want to be an engineer. I want to compete competitively in sport; alpine snowboard racing specifically. I would also like to compete in squash. I want to be a psychologist so that I can help people. I want to be a lawyer because I find law incredibly interesting. I want to be a politician so I can mould society from the highest Canadian position. I want to live a life that I won't regret when I die.