Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen...
These are my confessions....and yes, I am a teenage drama queen....you should know that...
I started smoking a few months back after I had a bad night at Ryan's with Tim being there and everything. I stopped for a while, but then I started hanging out with Amanda again and now I'm smoking so much. I love Amanda to death and she didn't pressure me into smoking, its my own decision. I do it because I'm so stressed out. Plus, I'm usually always with Amanda, Joey, Tom, Bryce, Tremell, Kevin and Ben Ray and they all smoke. So, I dont know what I'm getting at, but I'm disappointed in myself for smoking. But, I don't know if I'm gonna stop right now...I easily could...I just don't know if I wanna...its lame, I know.
I have always told myself that I would never smoke pot. I said that because my uncle was addicted to drugs for a long time and disappeared from my life for years, and one of my friends has recently gone to rehab for it. With that said, about a week ago I smoked for the first time. I have smoked almost every night since then. I don't really like smoking, but I love being high. Nothing matters when you're high...life is just easy and I love it!
I'm trying to be Tim's friend, but I don't think he understands what being a friend consists of. I always try to talk to him, and he ignores me. He has told me many times that he wants to be my friend, but ignoring me isn't being my friend. So I don't know what to do. I need him to be my friend because he is one of the few people who will listen to what I have to say no matter what. I talked to him on the phone the other day and we had a great conversation....but now he is ignoring me again. I don't get it.
I'm not really focusing on boys right now. I love boys, I would love to have a boyfriend, but its not really my main focus. I mean, Bryce is way fucking hot and he's single...but I don't know if I want to date him...it would be fun, but I don't really know much about him other than he likes to smoke and drink. I don't know though, Joey told me to go for it, but I don't know if I want to...ya know?
Me and Ryan don't really talk at all anymore. I'm not too mad about it...I think he's gonna start dating Jordan, which I think is weird seeing as how things went down in June...but whatever.
Me and Heather don't talk that much either...I miss her!! I wanna hang out with her all the time, but we never do!!! :(
I'm done...I don't feel like typing any more...bye.
I started smoking a few months back after I had a bad night at Ryan's with Tim being there and everything. I stopped for a while, but then I started hanging out with Amanda again and now I'm smoking so much. I love Amanda to death and she didn't pressure me into smoking, its my own decision. I do it because I'm so stressed out. Plus, I'm usually always with Amanda, Joey, Tom, Bryce, Tremell, Kevin and Ben Ray and they all smoke. So, I dont know what I'm getting at, but I'm disappointed in myself for smoking. But, I don't know if I'm gonna stop right now...I easily could...I just don't know if I wanna...its lame, I know.
I have always told myself that I would never smoke pot. I said that because my uncle was addicted to drugs for a long time and disappeared from my life for years, and one of my friends has recently gone to rehab for it. With that said, about a week ago I smoked for the first time. I have smoked almost every night since then. I don't really like smoking, but I love being high. Nothing matters when you're high...life is just easy and I love it!
I'm trying to be Tim's friend, but I don't think he understands what being a friend consists of. I always try to talk to him, and he ignores me. He has told me many times that he wants to be my friend, but ignoring me isn't being my friend. So I don't know what to do. I need him to be my friend because he is one of the few people who will listen to what I have to say no matter what. I talked to him on the phone the other day and we had a great conversation....but now he is ignoring me again. I don't get it.
I'm not really focusing on boys right now. I love boys, I would love to have a boyfriend, but its not really my main focus. I mean, Bryce is way fucking hot and he's single...but I don't know if I want to date him...it would be fun, but I don't really know much about him other than he likes to smoke and drink. I don't know though, Joey told me to go for it, but I don't know if I want to...ya know?
Me and Ryan don't really talk at all anymore. I'm not too mad about it...I think he's gonna start dating Jordan, which I think is weird seeing as how things went down in June...but whatever.
Me and Heather don't talk that much either...I miss her!! I wanna hang out with her all the time, but we never do!!! :(
I'm done...I don't feel like typing any more...bye.