LIFE
well,things have a changed quite a bit.i dont have a girlfriend,some things happened-and i guess it ended because it had to.but i don`t know,i mean i dont know what`s happening right now.things are confusing,and times are fast.everything is flying by-too many things are different.and i wish sometimes that i could go back..and try to fix things.but i guess what they say,"you can`t fix what isn`t broken."..hmm..anyways,EVERYTHING IS SO DIFFERENT.and i`m not even high school yet..middle school everything was changed,but it was bearable..i don`t even know right now.i`m stoked to be going to high school,but im also kind of freaked out.high school has changed almost everybody,even the most straight-edge people,and i don`t want to be one of those kids.peer pressure affects many people in different ways,and for me i guess it`s just one of those things that i break down with,but don`t give into..i just wish that sometimes I could make a difference in the way people are-but i just can`t,and that kills me.
girl situation,i`ve given up.girls are just confusing,and they make everything harder.maybe it`s just me,but maybe im better off without..and lately,i`ve been missing one person a lot..and i talked to one of my friends about it,and he told me how much she had changed,and the things she has done.and i realized that I DON`T MISS HER..i miss the times that we had together..and with amanda,things ended wrong,and i wish that some things that happened wouldn`t have..BUT I NEED TO STOP REMINISING.
im not going to be one of those people that has fun with drugs and alcohol.i`m just not.i mean sure,you can have fun with it temporarily,but it won`t do anything for you in the long run,and i`m trying to make something out of my life.
i just had to get this stuff out.call me straight edge,i don`t care.that`s who i am-and it`s not going to change if i can help it.