What Is He Doing In Here?
What a day, what a day. There is no where to start. It's all just one big blur. You can't help but notice when you feel unwanted by so many people. I was there today at the request of one of my dearest friends, who I really felt needed me today. She wanted me to be there, and I was told by many people it was ok, that they wanted me there. And the day is so tradgic that you just want to cry for all the people hurting so badly, but you can't help but notice those people who become offended, asking "what is he doing here? he is a football player." Well you know what, I am a football player. Indeed I am, but my closest friends belong to the band, and i was there for them, gladly doing what I can. I may not have known the man all that well, but over the last 8 months or so I have spent a lot of time in that band hall. I know who I was to Mr. White. I was that football player he liked, and allowed. Many times after a friday night game i would find myself sitting around the band hall being looked about with a smile. He would usually run off all the other football players, but me, not me, I was apparently "welcome".
It really does hurt me to see how everyone else is struggling to get through this. Mainly a few people. Andrea, and Alaina, who are two of my dearest friends, Chelsea, Tyler, and Her. I remember not long ago when it was me taking the blow. My grandmother passed. I was on the phone with Her at 4:30 that morning, and my grandfather called at 6:30 to inform us of the tradgic news. It was definately rough times, but She was always there, the night of my grandmother's death, Her house was open to me, the day of my grandmother's funeral She was there. That was the first really close person I had lost to the afterlife. The passing of Mr. White called for my help in many more ways than I could have expected. For Andrea, Alaina, Tyler, and Chelsea. But what I really wanted was to be there for Her. A lot of stuff has happened, and this is devastating to all of them, andrea, Alaina, Chelsea, Tyler, all of them. But with all the anger, violence, fighting, frustration, and despair, I really wished I was there for Her today more than anyone, the one who was holding me up and keeping me together in my corner when my grandmother passed. I know a lot has been going on recently, all bad, but I do love Her, and whether she should want it or not, I will always be there for Her. There were so many friends of mine devastated that I didn't have time to worry about any one person. I really believe I kept Andrea and alaina straight headed, and I'm afraid that people will think the only reason I was there was to use my friends as a poster to see Her, and if they do, they don't know me very well. I care very deeply for Andrea and Alaina. I'm much closer to andrea than I am my own sister. I'd do anything for any of my friends, Joel, Sarah, Tim, Alaina, and andrea. Andrea and Alaina sent for me and I came running. It was no secret that the reason's they sent for me wasn't just all for themselves, they wanted me there in case She needed me, and they all knew that I wanted to be able to be there for Her more than anyone else. Right they were, right indeed.
It really does hurt me to see how everyone else is struggling to get through this. Mainly a few people. Andrea, and Alaina, who are two of my dearest friends, Chelsea, Tyler, and Her. I remember not long ago when it was me taking the blow. My grandmother passed. I was on the phone with Her at 4:30 that morning, and my grandfather called at 6:30 to inform us of the tradgic news. It was definately rough times, but She was always there, the night of my grandmother's death, Her house was open to me, the day of my grandmother's funeral She was there. That was the first really close person I had lost to the afterlife. The passing of Mr. White called for my help in many more ways than I could have expected. For Andrea, Alaina, Tyler, and Chelsea. But what I really wanted was to be there for Her. A lot of stuff has happened, and this is devastating to all of them, andrea, Alaina, Chelsea, Tyler, all of them. But with all the anger, violence, fighting, frustration, and despair, I really wished I was there for Her today more than anyone, the one who was holding me up and keeping me together in my corner when my grandmother passed. I know a lot has been going on recently, all bad, but I do love Her, and whether she should want it or not, I will always be there for Her. There were so many friends of mine devastated that I didn't have time to worry about any one person. I really believe I kept Andrea and alaina straight headed, and I'm afraid that people will think the only reason I was there was to use my friends as a poster to see Her, and if they do, they don't know me very well. I care very deeply for Andrea and Alaina. I'm much closer to andrea than I am my own sister. I'd do anything for any of my friends, Joel, Sarah, Tim, Alaina, and andrea. Andrea and Alaina sent for me and I came running. It was no secret that the reason's they sent for me wasn't just all for themselves, they wanted me there in case She needed me, and they all knew that I wanted to be able to be there for Her more than anyone else. Right they were, right indeed.