The first day of the rest of my life
I don't know if it is the fact that I am getting older, or that time is drifting away from me at an astronomical pace, but today I said..."Screw this, I am going to enjoy every minute of it. I will not let the people I held on to become the reason I hold back from acting fun, crazy, and spontaneous."
I am sick of letting memories, regrets, and the desire to right the wrongs that nobody can undo, get in the way of me enjoying the moment. If you want to leave me in the dust, or treat me as less than human because you are bitter against me, then let that be on you.
Its funny how the very people who I would lay down my life for, are the ones who treat me the most confusing. I know this has nothing to do with the musings I usually right, but it's just the way it is.
My mom treats me like a distant neighbor, my ex treats me as that dude over there...when for both of them, I was there the most...when no one else gave a damn. This has made me bitter...but I decided that today...TODAY...I was letting go. I am not holding on anymore. If they want to treat me like a douchebag that they falsely believe me to be...than whatever...I don't care. I can't care. I am closing the windows, doors, etc. to my heart that allowed their poisonous breezes to corrode my inner being
I am young, have a life, and want to run with it...I want to be free, spontaneous, and downright thriving.
I am sick of letting memories, regrets, and the desire to right the wrongs that nobody can undo, get in the way of me enjoying the moment. If you want to leave me in the dust, or treat me as less than human because you are bitter against me, then let that be on you.
Its funny how the very people who I would lay down my life for, are the ones who treat me the most confusing. I know this has nothing to do with the musings I usually right, but it's just the way it is.
My mom treats me like a distant neighbor, my ex treats me as that dude over there...when for both of them, I was there the most...when no one else gave a damn. This has made me bitter...but I decided that today...TODAY...I was letting go. I am not holding on anymore. If they want to treat me like a douchebag that they falsely believe me to be...than whatever...I don't care. I can't care. I am closing the windows, doors, etc. to my heart that allowed their poisonous breezes to corrode my inner being
I am young, have a life, and want to run with it...I want to be free, spontaneous, and downright thriving.