Shits and giggles... but mostly just shit.
So I'm pretty sure that I shouldn't have been so excited about thanksgiving break... It seems like whenever i actually get excited about something it turns to shit. I don't know when in my life ive ever felt so unwanted, heard so many voice mails, or been given so many lame excuses. I usually try to not take things very personal, but when drive around town alone for the 4th night in a row desperatly running through your contact list for someone that isn't... pre-occupied...
Which brings me to my next complant...
I remember back when I had a girlfriend (yes, I know it has been a while) I tried to be inclusive to others. It kinda just seems like common decency to not put everyone else off just so you can fuck each-other's brains out every waking minute. Maybe it's just me... Maybe it's the new thing to be solely inclusive to your "significant other" or those who have such a person... but that just kinda seems kind of shitty to me.
I went back to Ames for a while today, and it was such a surprising relief. It's weird that a big empty house could feel more welcoming than all of your ... friends... back home. It's also kind of sad. My mom suggested that it's probably because I'm out of the loop... I've created a new life up at Ames, and life here has grown on not around me, but without. That seems sad. I hope that is not the case. I would think that the years that I have been a part of your lives would stay a constant, and be something that could be picked up after an incredibly long 3 months away...
Three days of break left after thanksgiving... I dont see as how my opinion of home so far could change very much in that short amount of time. It seems strange that a week could go so fast, but i guess shit happens. I dont know whether or not im excited to go back to ames or not... I guess we'll see how this weekend goes.
Which brings me to my next complant...
I remember back when I had a girlfriend (yes, I know it has been a while) I tried to be inclusive to others. It kinda just seems like common decency to not put everyone else off just so you can fuck each-other's brains out every waking minute. Maybe it's just me... Maybe it's the new thing to be solely inclusive to your "significant other" or those who have such a person... but that just kinda seems kind of shitty to me.
I went back to Ames for a while today, and it was such a surprising relief. It's weird that a big empty house could feel more welcoming than all of your ... friends... back home. It's also kind of sad. My mom suggested that it's probably because I'm out of the loop... I've created a new life up at Ames, and life here has grown on not around me, but without. That seems sad. I hope that is not the case. I would think that the years that I have been a part of your lives would stay a constant, and be something that could be picked up after an incredibly long 3 months away...
Three days of break left after thanksgiving... I dont see as how my opinion of home so far could change very much in that short amount of time. It seems strange that a week could go so fast, but i guess shit happens. I dont know whether or not im excited to go back to ames or not... I guess we'll see how this weekend goes.