The Night Our Love Came To An End
'She was the one I loved the most. She was the only girl who could make me crazy. She was the one I cared the most. She was the one I dreamt of everynight. She was my lovely princess in my life and would always be. But she was no longer mine, yet, my love towards her still carved deep inside of my heart. Never changed, never gone. . .like it would be last forevere. Nothing changed. . .everything was still the same. I wished for a miracle to bring her back into my arms. Without her. . .I was nothing, lifeles, lonely, desperate, loveless and empty. Iwas nothing but a living doll. Could I pass through the excruciating days ahead without her by my side? Could I survive from this painful love if she wasn't here to support me? Could I face reality without her to encourage me? Could I? can I?'
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Night cold wind blew softly to my face. I was walking aimlessly without no one's company, then reality knocked in me and my brain registered where I was. Standing still, I continued staring at her house, my ex girlfriend's house. Why, out of places in the world, did my legs bring me here? I asked myself inwardly. I saw the gate, the garden, the paint of the wall...everything was still like the first time I came here. Yet, there was something changed... "us"
I'm Jung Yunho, 19years old boy, graduated student of SM high school. And the daughter of the owner of this house is Jung Jee Sup, 18years old girl and sophomore student at my school. We were lovers, we had dated since last year. Until last week . . .
= Flashback=
"Honey, want to go to my house after school is over?" I asked her, we were having lunch at school garden with my bestfriends
"Yah you asked her to come over to your house yesterday and now you want Jee ah to come over AGAIN? You really can't stand not seeing you girlfriend even for one day, huh?" my best friend among the others, Park Yoochun said teasingly
"Is that the reason why you never hang out with us anymore hyung?" Shim Changmin, the youngest and the cutest one asked
"We still meet in school, right? So what is the matter if I can't go out with you all guys anyway" I replied bluntly
"You are such a jerk Yunho" my dolphin friend shrieked and smacked my head playfully
"Yah what's up Jee ah?" Yoochun asked , noticing her odd quietness "you are so quite today. Are you okay?"
"Yeah I'm wondering too, usually you and Junsu hyung are the hyper ones. Why all of a sudden you become so quiet?" Changmin said worriedly
"Hmm. . .Yunho oppa" she whispered softly, I responded with held her hand gently "let's just break up"
= End flashback =
That was how our relationship ended, no one had never thought she would ask for a break up. Neither had I. Not when both of us were always together and happy. I knew she loved me as much as I loved her and she wouldn't cheat on me. I didn't know what her reason was until this morning. She would never tell me no matter what because she was the most stubborn girl I had ever known. If only her brother didn't send me an invitation maybe I wouldn't figure out what the heck was wrong with her. Even with that invitation I was still confuse and wasn't knowing how to react. What invitation? it was an engagement invitation. It was said Jee was going to have an engagement five days later with someone named Kim Jaejoong. Did you know what I felt tonight? the love one of your life was taken away from you and had to be engaged soon. How to react? what to do? all I could say was NOTHING. Not that I didn't want to fight back for my one and only love. Moreover because I still couldn't believe it was really happening. My girlfriend broke up with me and soon would be someone's else fiancee. How pathetic, I said to myself.
My eyes started burning, signaled for the unwelcomed tears. I hate crying because it made me look weak and I didn't want to be weak. I wanted to be tough and strong. Eventhough my world was breaking down, my life turned upside down, my heart shattered into tiny little pieces and my life became miserable. I still wanted to be stronger. Now all I wanted to do was holding her in my simply hug and never let her slip away for the second time. Could I do that? NO. Why? I even didn't have the strength and couragement to see her anymore. Then how could I hold her? I'm a coward, right?
Knelled down I pulled my legs closer to my chest, hugged my own self tightly and cried even harder. My shoulder was shaking, if there was anyone walked by they could see me cried for my own sorrow; my own weakness and my lost love. Then, a 'creak' sound from the door reached my ears but my tears kept streaming down endlessly. My tears made my vision to get blurry. A light footsteps then followed, it halted in front of me. I could see a pair of pink slippery house standing before me, that person I had known perfectly well didn't say anything. She was only standing there and staring down at me. The wind blew softly, anysounds suddenly disappeared as if someone had pushed the 'mute' button. Slowly, ever so slowly, I gathered the last strength inside of me to lift my head up. Surely enough Jee was there, standing before me, eyes red and puffy. Maybe she was crying just like me. I was still kneeling down while she was looking down at me.
"Yunho oppa..." she said hoarsely "mianhae oppa, cheongmal mianhaeyo *sob* *sob* I didn't want it *sob* *sob* to turn out this way *sob* *sob* I'm so sorry oppa"
"Jee ah..." I stood up slowly, I wanted to say something but she placed her index finger on my lips. Prevented me to do so
"Please oppa, just listen to everything *sob* *sob* I'm going to say *sob* *sob* I know it's upset you, it's upset me too *sob* *sob* but you have to know that I'll *sob* *sob*only love you and no one else *sob* *sob* No matter what I'm sure my heart belongs to you, I'm happy because you *sob* *sob*love me as much as I do. If I could turn around *sob* *sob*the time, I'm willing to runaway with you oppa *sob* *sob* so I could be with you forever. But now it's too late, you have to move on oppa" Jee then pulled me into a hug for a second
"Jee ah..." I said weakly, once again she cut me off but this time with her kiss.
Slowly she broke the kiss and gave me the last stare before she ran away and stepped in her house again. I noticed a tears pooled in those beautiful eyes of her before she left. Smiled to myself I took a deep breath and proceeded to go home. Leaving her house, leaving her and leaving my miseries. Just kept our love in the depth of my heart. Rain suddenly started poring down and soaking my shirt. Tears and rain mixed. Was this really how our love ended, Jee ah? I wanted to ask her but I know it wasn't. Our love wouldn't end just like this, both of us still held it no matter what. Our love would last forever right, honey?
...Hazusenai mune no kusosu ni kizanda sono namae, baby you're my love
Kimi no inai sekai wa yami ni furuete
Nee...subete yume nare ii no ni
Aitakute oh my girl...
~...I carved your name to the cross that I can't pull out from my heart, baby you are my love
The world without you will be full of darkness
If only this was all of dream
I wanted to see you oh my girl...~
...Wasurerarenai omoide no naka dake ikiteru
Kono omoi forever, yamanai ame ga
Boku no kokoro dake kagiri naku nurashitemo
I can't say goodbye 'cause I still love you...
~...You are only living in the unforgettable memories
This feeling forever, is not going to stop
Even if deep in my heart gets wet
I can't say goodbye 'cause I still love you...~
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Night cold wind blew softly to my face. I was walking aimlessly without no one's company, then reality knocked in me and my brain registered where I was. Standing still, I continued staring at her house, my ex girlfriend's house. Why, out of places in the world, did my legs bring me here? I asked myself inwardly. I saw the gate, the garden, the paint of the wall...everything was still like the first time I came here. Yet, there was something changed... "us"
I'm Jung Yunho, 19years old boy, graduated student of SM high school. And the daughter of the owner of this house is Jung Jee Sup, 18years old girl and sophomore student at my school. We were lovers, we had dated since last year. Until last week . . .
= Flashback=
"Honey, want to go to my house after school is over?" I asked her, we were having lunch at school garden with my bestfriends
"Yah you asked her to come over to your house yesterday and now you want Jee ah to come over AGAIN? You really can't stand not seeing you girlfriend even for one day, huh?" my best friend among the others, Park Yoochun said teasingly
"Is that the reason why you never hang out with us anymore hyung?" Shim Changmin, the youngest and the cutest one asked
"We still meet in school, right? So what is the matter if I can't go out with you all guys anyway" I replied bluntly
"You are such a jerk Yunho" my dolphin friend shrieked and smacked my head playfully
"Yah what's up Jee ah?" Yoochun asked , noticing her odd quietness "you are so quite today. Are you okay?"
"Yeah I'm wondering too, usually you and Junsu hyung are the hyper ones. Why all of a sudden you become so quiet?" Changmin said worriedly
"Hmm. . .Yunho oppa" she whispered softly, I responded with held her hand gently "let's just break up"
= End flashback =
That was how our relationship ended, no one had never thought she would ask for a break up. Neither had I. Not when both of us were always together and happy. I knew she loved me as much as I loved her and she wouldn't cheat on me. I didn't know what her reason was until this morning. She would never tell me no matter what because she was the most stubborn girl I had ever known. If only her brother didn't send me an invitation maybe I wouldn't figure out what the heck was wrong with her. Even with that invitation I was still confuse and wasn't knowing how to react. What invitation? it was an engagement invitation. It was said Jee was going to have an engagement five days later with someone named Kim Jaejoong. Did you know what I felt tonight? the love one of your life was taken away from you and had to be engaged soon. How to react? what to do? all I could say was NOTHING. Not that I didn't want to fight back for my one and only love. Moreover because I still couldn't believe it was really happening. My girlfriend broke up with me and soon would be someone's else fiancee. How pathetic, I said to myself.
My eyes started burning, signaled for the unwelcomed tears. I hate crying because it made me look weak and I didn't want to be weak. I wanted to be tough and strong. Eventhough my world was breaking down, my life turned upside down, my heart shattered into tiny little pieces and my life became miserable. I still wanted to be stronger. Now all I wanted to do was holding her in my simply hug and never let her slip away for the second time. Could I do that? NO. Why? I even didn't have the strength and couragement to see her anymore. Then how could I hold her? I'm a coward, right?
Knelled down I pulled my legs closer to my chest, hugged my own self tightly and cried even harder. My shoulder was shaking, if there was anyone walked by they could see me cried for my own sorrow; my own weakness and my lost love. Then, a 'creak' sound from the door reached my ears but my tears kept streaming down endlessly. My tears made my vision to get blurry. A light footsteps then followed, it halted in front of me. I could see a pair of pink slippery house standing before me, that person I had known perfectly well didn't say anything. She was only standing there and staring down at me. The wind blew softly, anysounds suddenly disappeared as if someone had pushed the 'mute' button. Slowly, ever so slowly, I gathered the last strength inside of me to lift my head up. Surely enough Jee was there, standing before me, eyes red and puffy. Maybe she was crying just like me. I was still kneeling down while she was looking down at me.
"Yunho oppa..." she said hoarsely "mianhae oppa, cheongmal mianhaeyo *sob* *sob* I didn't want it *sob* *sob* to turn out this way *sob* *sob* I'm so sorry oppa"
"Jee ah..." I stood up slowly, I wanted to say something but she placed her index finger on my lips. Prevented me to do so
"Please oppa, just listen to everything *sob* *sob* I'm going to say *sob* *sob* I know it's upset you, it's upset me too *sob* *sob* but you have to know that I'll *sob* *sob*only love you and no one else *sob* *sob* No matter what I'm sure my heart belongs to you, I'm happy because you *sob* *sob*love me as much as I do. If I could turn around *sob* *sob*the time, I'm willing to runaway with you oppa *sob* *sob* so I could be with you forever. But now it's too late, you have to move on oppa" Jee then pulled me into a hug for a second
"Jee ah..." I said weakly, once again she cut me off but this time with her kiss.
Slowly she broke the kiss and gave me the last stare before she ran away and stepped in her house again. I noticed a tears pooled in those beautiful eyes of her before she left. Smiled to myself I took a deep breath and proceeded to go home. Leaving her house, leaving her and leaving my miseries. Just kept our love in the depth of my heart. Rain suddenly started poring down and soaking my shirt. Tears and rain mixed. Was this really how our love ended, Jee ah? I wanted to ask her but I know it wasn't. Our love wouldn't end just like this, both of us still held it no matter what. Our love would last forever right, honey?
...Hazusenai mune no kusosu ni kizanda sono namae, baby you're my love
Kimi no inai sekai wa yami ni furuete
Nee...subete yume nare ii no ni
Aitakute oh my girl...
~...I carved your name to the cross that I can't pull out from my heart, baby you are my love
The world without you will be full of darkness
If only this was all of dream
I wanted to see you oh my girl...~
...Wasurerarenai omoide no naka dake ikiteru
Kono omoi forever, yamanai ame ga
Boku no kokoro dake kagiri naku nurashitemo
I can't say goodbye 'cause I still love you...
~...You are only living in the unforgettable memories
This feeling forever, is not going to stop
Even if deep in my heart gets wet
I can't say goodbye 'cause I still love you...~