why? (read this as you browse through)
so i somehow had a random epihany today
my life is great everything bad that happens IS NOTHING compared to what other people are going through and in relizing that i feel complete.
i know ill be sad or mad or frustrated but thats just life. reading that id be like "ya your gay" too but anyways...
i made a promise to open everything up, i dont care, i could regret this late but oh well if i hate the truth then i might as well live in denial for the rest of my shallow little life!
okay my parents are perfect but now i see they love me and everything that i dont like what the do has reason behind it
like the drink and my dad smokes cigars but thats good for me in that i hate cigs, alcohol, and drugs soooo much, but still feel love and compasion to the people they affect
my only drink of alcohol was by suprise at an episcopal church (actually makes a funny story)
i have smoked some but it was only a half a cig i found on the street, and it was basically at one of the lowest point i'd ever been in and i was just depressed and felt at the time i had no real friends and noone knew how bad it felt... (ask me the whole thing if your brave b/c its way too long and detailed)
no drugs unless pescribed
the only other thing (and real thing) i wanted to admit to is that i kind got into the whole porn thing in early high school and another isolated inccodent this year and no ones perfect and it was/is stupid and ive repented and struggled and am still in the process of eliminating even the want to go on the internet, etc...... but yea
well thats me at glance of inperfection
but really if your on my friends list or myspace friend thing (oh how cliche i feel) i DO CARE and i want to hang out but i work alllll the tiimmmeee!!!!!
THE BEGINNING.
my life is great everything bad that happens IS NOTHING compared to what other people are going through and in relizing that i feel complete.
i know ill be sad or mad or frustrated but thats just life. reading that id be like "ya your gay" too but anyways...
i made a promise to open everything up, i dont care, i could regret this late but oh well if i hate the truth then i might as well live in denial for the rest of my shallow little life!
okay my parents are perfect but now i see they love me and everything that i dont like what the do has reason behind it
like the drink and my dad smokes cigars but thats good for me in that i hate cigs, alcohol, and drugs soooo much, but still feel love and compasion to the people they affect
my only drink of alcohol was by suprise at an episcopal church (actually makes a funny story)
i have smoked some but it was only a half a cig i found on the street, and it was basically at one of the lowest point i'd ever been in and i was just depressed and felt at the time i had no real friends and noone knew how bad it felt... (ask me the whole thing if your brave b/c its way too long and detailed)
no drugs unless pescribed
the only other thing (and real thing) i wanted to admit to is that i kind got into the whole porn thing in early high school and another isolated inccodent this year and no ones perfect and it was/is stupid and ive repented and struggled and am still in the process of eliminating even the want to go on the internet, etc...... but yea
well thats me at glance of inperfection
but really if your on my friends list or myspace friend thing (oh how cliche i feel) i DO CARE and i want to hang out but i work alllll the tiimmmeee!!!!!
THE BEGINNING.