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I've come back but only for a while, I think..
I'm in a state of mind where the subconcious has become the concious and the unconcious has become a longing. If i make no sense to you, dont bother trying to decifer something that you know nothing about. I'm stuck in that feeling...when you're warm and comfortable in bed; so soft and snug in the warm covers..until one slight move of the leg makes you feel as if you've fallen through the matress, plumeting thousands of feet to the cement side walk. And then..you open your eyes, blink several times to find that you're still in your bed but no longer are you comfortable, relaxed and warm...But cold sweaty and nervously paranoid. This feeling plagues me and I think i need to return home. Ontop of this feeling i have been pushing someone away which i appologize for; and i also have this disgusting feeling in my stomach. A combination of a sinking in my stomach and knives being pushed through the lining as well. Sleep dosnt come easy for me, but then again it never has. I'll be around. Forgive the Rant.
-Dero
I'm in a state of mind where the subconcious has become the concious and the unconcious has become a longing. If i make no sense to you, dont bother trying to decifer something that you know nothing about. I'm stuck in that feeling...when you're warm and comfortable in bed; so soft and snug in the warm covers..until one slight move of the leg makes you feel as if you've fallen through the matress, plumeting thousands of feet to the cement side walk. And then..you open your eyes, blink several times to find that you're still in your bed but no longer are you comfortable, relaxed and warm...But cold sweaty and nervously paranoid. This feeling plagues me and I think i need to return home. Ontop of this feeling i have been pushing someone away which i appologize for; and i also have this disgusting feeling in my stomach. A combination of a sinking in my stomach and knives being pushed through the lining as well. Sleep dosnt come easy for me, but then again it never has. I'll be around. Forgive the Rant.
-Dero