Happy Birthday Richie and various other thoughts
It hasn't been as long as it usually is between my updates, but this one is going to be short and sweet.
Jonny and the boys are already gone and I miss him an unusual amount. Unusual because I thought I was beyond this feeling really, it seemed for a long time that I was. Maybe I was just giving more of myself to the kids and keeping less inside and therefore had nothing left.
I know the person who got nothing was Jon and maybe that will change or maybe we will go on this way. He'll pretend I care and I'll pretend I don't. And one day it will all explode loudly or just quietly implode into nothing.
I know about her, I don't know what I'm going to do, if anything, but I know I'm not going to pretend I it doesn't matter anymore.
I'm taking the kids to Jon's parent's and flying out to the show in Tinley Park tonight.
It's Richie's birthday, so tonight after the show, we'll party and then Jon and I will talk. I hope.
Jonny and the boys are already gone and I miss him an unusual amount. Unusual because I thought I was beyond this feeling really, it seemed for a long time that I was. Maybe I was just giving more of myself to the kids and keeping less inside and therefore had nothing left.
I know the person who got nothing was Jon and maybe that will change or maybe we will go on this way. He'll pretend I care and I'll pretend I don't. And one day it will all explode loudly or just quietly implode into nothing.
I know about her, I don't know what I'm going to do, if anything, but I know I'm not going to pretend I it doesn't matter anymore.
I'm taking the kids to Jon's parent's and flying out to the show in Tinley Park tonight.
It's Richie's birthday, so tonight after the show, we'll party and then Jon and I will talk. I hope.