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life...uhg.
i really like this boy. ALOT. and i know it because just thinking about him gives me butterflies. and for once in my life i'm actually shy around someone. and it's like he's that person you're always looking for where ever you go..even though you know that he won't be there. i just like him SO much. i just don't know if it would workout and i am simply to scared to tell him, due to fear of rejection.. uhg.
then theres this other boy. cute. fun. love to flirt with. we just have a good time. like the kid alot. but too much other things going on, and an actual relationship just would not work... esp. since i am Crazy about boy #1. but for the time being it's nice feeling good.
then theres soccer. Super Excited. and nervous at the same time. i only see one major down fall in the season. and let me tell you, it's a big one. but i'm hoping the the presence of certain girls will help tame the badness of the other thing. conditioning is ... interesting. today i pretty much hungout with wrestlers until they began to play football with me shoe. and then b came up, got pissed. and i defff peaced out. Pokie makes me laugh. Pinning boys does too, lol. :)
Cheezeits & Twizzlers & goldfishies!
I cannot wait until high school is over. i just want to be done with the place. I'll miss certain aspects. but for the most part, it will be nice to not have to deal with the bullshit and drama. only another 4 months. !!! :)
I <3 our wrestling team, and thats all there is to it.
Some people make me feel like I am the one being the bitch. Well, guess what. I'm not. I am not. And i have realized that i have so many more people who actually do care for me, and do want to be there for me no matter what. And i LOVE that fact. and that i don't need to depend on undeserving people. Go me. Apifany (sp?) of the day.
Anyways, this is getting long, and i need sleep.
peace.
[if only you knew, what this was i was really feeling]
i really like this boy. ALOT. and i know it because just thinking about him gives me butterflies. and for once in my life i'm actually shy around someone. and it's like he's that person you're always looking for where ever you go..even though you know that he won't be there. i just like him SO much. i just don't know if it would workout and i am simply to scared to tell him, due to fear of rejection.. uhg.
then theres this other boy. cute. fun. love to flirt with. we just have a good time. like the kid alot. but too much other things going on, and an actual relationship just would not work... esp. since i am Crazy about boy #1. but for the time being it's nice feeling good.
then theres soccer. Super Excited. and nervous at the same time. i only see one major down fall in the season. and let me tell you, it's a big one. but i'm hoping the the presence of certain girls will help tame the badness of the other thing. conditioning is ... interesting. today i pretty much hungout with wrestlers until they began to play football with me shoe. and then b came up, got pissed. and i defff peaced out. Pokie makes me laugh. Pinning boys does too, lol. :)
Cheezeits & Twizzlers & goldfishies!
I cannot wait until high school is over. i just want to be done with the place. I'll miss certain aspects. but for the most part, it will be nice to not have to deal with the bullshit and drama. only another 4 months. !!! :)
I <3 our wrestling team, and thats all there is to it.
Some people make me feel like I am the one being the bitch. Well, guess what. I'm not. I am not. And i have realized that i have so many more people who actually do care for me, and do want to be there for me no matter what. And i LOVE that fact. and that i don't need to depend on undeserving people. Go me. Apifany (sp?) of the day.
Anyways, this is getting long, and i need sleep.
peace.
[if only you knew, what this was i was really feeling]