Lame Twilight Fanfic to Disney song
I am a question to the world/Not an answer to be heard/Or a moment/That’s held in your arms
She had looked silly in her cast and ridiculous blue dress. And yet I hadn’t been able to get her out of my mind. She was undeniably pretty, cute in a tragic sort of way, and yet I felt that when we had danced together she had only been biding her time before she returned to her heartthrob boyfriend. I tried not to care about that, but didn’t I deserve just a bit more attention than that? He didn’t seem all that special to me at the time.
And what do you think you’d ever say?/I wont listen anyway/You don’t know me/And I’ll never be what you want me to be
“Look at me,” I wanted to beg her. “You came to me first. Look at me, see me, please just see me.” And she did, with eyes that were lost. After Edward had left her she was like a creature thrown to sea, thrashing endlessly in waves of cold and pain. I could imagine what she would say if I asked her about him. I didn’t want to hear it. I wanted her to see me, but she only saw one face.
And what do you think you’d understand?/I’m a boy, no I’m a man/You can’t take me/And throw me away
Smiles, laughter, love. She loved me. She just didn’t know it. She didn’t want to admit it. If she admitted it, then that would mean that maybe she was wrong. Maybe she could be happy, maybe Edward wasn’t her life. I tumbled out of bed with a smile on my face, even though I was exhausted from guarding her night and day. She’d come around, I told myself. She had to. And then he was back, and when she was with him it was like I never existed.
And how can you learn what’s never shown?/Yeah, you stand here on your own/They don’t know me/Cause I’m not here
She still thought about me. She still cared. Even when she was around him she still cared. And she still loved me. Yet how could she ever know? Even I could see how Edward affected her, though I didn’t want to. He was wrong, so wrong for her. Watching her eyes glaze over in his presence was sickening to me, as sickening as I found the scent of him and his kind. There was nothing I could do, because I could not get near her. If I couldn’t get to her, then she would continue being lost. Lost in the abyss that was Edward. I couldn’t bear to see her lost anymore, I couldn’t stand for it. I would fight for her. I would make her see that she loved me, and that I loved her. I would offer her a choice. I would be there.
And you see the things they never see/All you wanted I could be/Now you know me/And I’m not afraid
‘Ask me,’ and she did. Yet she resisted. It made me angry, it made me try harder… until she gave way. And then she was kissing me back, and I almost jumped out of my skin in joy. She loved me, it wasn’t a delusion I was chasing, it was truth. She loved me, and I wasn’t afraid anymore. How could anything be bad anymore, when she loved me and I loved her? She would choose me, she would choose life… how could she not with everything I offered?
And I wanna tell you who I am/Can you help me be a man?/They can’t break me/As long as I know who I am
My joy had rushed into them the moment I changed. ‘She loves you’, the minds of the pack whispered through the forest. ‘She loves me’ my spirit whispered back. ‘Will she choose you?’ my friends asked. ‘She will, of course she will’ I thought. ‘She won’t,’ a distinct female thought came through, I snarled. ‘She will!’ I growled. And then we were fighting. Soon, soon we would have the rest of our lives together. Soon.
They can’t tell me who to be/Cause I’m not what they see/Yeah, the world is still sleepin’ while I keep on dreaming for me/And their words are just whispers and lies that I’ll never believe
‘She’s with Edward,’ They had whispered to me as I blinked hazily through the pain. Of course she was I thought, Edward could protect her. He could protect her while I was recovering. But in their voices I heard ‘She’s with Edward, she’s chosen Edward.’ But I couldn’t believe that. There was no way I could believe that. Not and stay sane. I fell back into the pain and wished she was there holding my hand. But we had forever for hand holding, didn’t we?
And I want a moment to be real/Wanna touch things I don’t feel/Wanna hold on and feel I belong/And how can the world want me to change?/They’re the ones they stay the same/They don’t know me/Cause I’m not here
Running, running, running. She had chosen Edward against all reason. When the invitation to the wedding came it was all I could do to stay human long enough to run out of the house. I was gone. I left Jacob Black behind. Like she left me behind. Now I didn’t know what I was, all that matters was that I was running. Running as far and as hard as I could. Running forever.
I’m the one now/Cause I’m still here/I’m the one/Cause I’m still here/I’m still here/I’m still here/I’m still here
And yet… you can’t run away from yourself forever. Even when facing having my heart ripped to shreds over and over again for eternity… I would keep putting it back together for her. Because no matter what flawed logic she’s thrown at me, no matter the drug that Edward provides, no matter the pitiful looks from my friends and family, and looks of disdain from Leah, we were meant to be together. And I’ll be here, waiting. Of course I’ll be here waiting. I’ll always be here.
She had looked silly in her cast and ridiculous blue dress. And yet I hadn’t been able to get her out of my mind. She was undeniably pretty, cute in a tragic sort of way, and yet I felt that when we had danced together she had only been biding her time before she returned to her heartthrob boyfriend. I tried not to care about that, but didn’t I deserve just a bit more attention than that? He didn’t seem all that special to me at the time.
And what do you think you’d ever say?/I wont listen anyway/You don’t know me/And I’ll never be what you want me to be
“Look at me,” I wanted to beg her. “You came to me first. Look at me, see me, please just see me.” And she did, with eyes that were lost. After Edward had left her she was like a creature thrown to sea, thrashing endlessly in waves of cold and pain. I could imagine what she would say if I asked her about him. I didn’t want to hear it. I wanted her to see me, but she only saw one face.
And what do you think you’d understand?/I’m a boy, no I’m a man/You can’t take me/And throw me away
Smiles, laughter, love. She loved me. She just didn’t know it. She didn’t want to admit it. If she admitted it, then that would mean that maybe she was wrong. Maybe she could be happy, maybe Edward wasn’t her life. I tumbled out of bed with a smile on my face, even though I was exhausted from guarding her night and day. She’d come around, I told myself. She had to. And then he was back, and when she was with him it was like I never existed.
And how can you learn what’s never shown?/Yeah, you stand here on your own/They don’t know me/Cause I’m not here
She still thought about me. She still cared. Even when she was around him she still cared. And she still loved me. Yet how could she ever know? Even I could see how Edward affected her, though I didn’t want to. He was wrong, so wrong for her. Watching her eyes glaze over in his presence was sickening to me, as sickening as I found the scent of him and his kind. There was nothing I could do, because I could not get near her. If I couldn’t get to her, then she would continue being lost. Lost in the abyss that was Edward. I couldn’t bear to see her lost anymore, I couldn’t stand for it. I would fight for her. I would make her see that she loved me, and that I loved her. I would offer her a choice. I would be there.
And you see the things they never see/All you wanted I could be/Now you know me/And I’m not afraid
‘Ask me,’ and she did. Yet she resisted. It made me angry, it made me try harder… until she gave way. And then she was kissing me back, and I almost jumped out of my skin in joy. She loved me, it wasn’t a delusion I was chasing, it was truth. She loved me, and I wasn’t afraid anymore. How could anything be bad anymore, when she loved me and I loved her? She would choose me, she would choose life… how could she not with everything I offered?
And I wanna tell you who I am/Can you help me be a man?/They can’t break me/As long as I know who I am
My joy had rushed into them the moment I changed. ‘She loves you’, the minds of the pack whispered through the forest. ‘She loves me’ my spirit whispered back. ‘Will she choose you?’ my friends asked. ‘She will, of course she will’ I thought. ‘She won’t,’ a distinct female thought came through, I snarled. ‘She will!’ I growled. And then we were fighting. Soon, soon we would have the rest of our lives together. Soon.
They can’t tell me who to be/Cause I’m not what they see/Yeah, the world is still sleepin’ while I keep on dreaming for me/And their words are just whispers and lies that I’ll never believe
‘She’s with Edward,’ They had whispered to me as I blinked hazily through the pain. Of course she was I thought, Edward could protect her. He could protect her while I was recovering. But in their voices I heard ‘She’s with Edward, she’s chosen Edward.’ But I couldn’t believe that. There was no way I could believe that. Not and stay sane. I fell back into the pain and wished she was there holding my hand. But we had forever for hand holding, didn’t we?
And I want a moment to be real/Wanna touch things I don’t feel/Wanna hold on and feel I belong/And how can the world want me to change?/They’re the ones they stay the same/They don’t know me/Cause I’m not here
Running, running, running. She had chosen Edward against all reason. When the invitation to the wedding came it was all I could do to stay human long enough to run out of the house. I was gone. I left Jacob Black behind. Like she left me behind. Now I didn’t know what I was, all that matters was that I was running. Running as far and as hard as I could. Running forever.
I’m the one now/Cause I’m still here/I’m the one/Cause I’m still here/I’m still here/I’m still here/I’m still here
And yet… you can’t run away from yourself forever. Even when facing having my heart ripped to shreds over and over again for eternity… I would keep putting it back together for her. Because no matter what flawed logic she’s thrown at me, no matter the drug that Edward provides, no matter the pitiful looks from my friends and family, and looks of disdain from Leah, we were meant to be together. And I’ll be here, waiting. Of course I’ll be here waiting. I’ll always be here.