midnight calls

[d3vi15_mu53]

calling old friends in the middle of the night, thinking that they might have some advice.
then you realize that they are just as messed up as you.
you call girls that you used to know because you know how easily they could fall in love, but it's past midnight,so no one answers their phone.
just fall asleep it'll be better come morning, but its not.
i dont know if its you, i wish i did.
i dont know much anymore.
i dont know if i can have any other dreams, and i dont know if i can run from this reality like i have so many times before.
i dont know if waiting is right.
i dont know that you will ever love me.
i dont know if this is heartbreak.
i dont know if im really your friend, or just a soft let down.
i dont know if i will ever get in your head, how you've set up camp in mine.
i dont know if i can be a teacher.
i dont know if i can be an adventurer.
i dont know if you give a shit.
i dont know if i can do this friend thing right.
i dont know if you'll read this most likely not.
i dont know if that crystal heart that im getting you will make you smile.
i dont know why i write.
i dont know why i cant eat.
i dont know why when i get the chance i dont fuck.
i do know that when i sing you remember, thats the one thing i know, if im wrong please tell me.