Yeah, so the NIN concert was pretty awesome. Although, I gotta say:
- Emo/goth kids suck ass at showing the performers respect by properly rocking out. hmph. (That Emo song was right...).
- Smoke is your worst friend when you have a nasty cold.
- Ross is a pretty cool guy, despite what some people say and stuff.
- Drunk guys are annoying and little 12 year olds are worse.
- Jordan's dad is pretty "hip"
- Death from above from 1979 is not... as cracked up... as everyone seems to think them
- Nine Inch Nails delivers the most amazing show I've ever felt and seen.
In other news, I love concerts. Actually, in other news lots of other crap going on. School work is taking over my life as most people have noticed. It's pretty aggrivating, but at this point I'm not too sure I care. I've got a "fuck the world" outlook on things right now, so whatever. On the note of fucking of worlds, I had a whole rant over how emo I was being today, but I'll just leave it at I'm noticing more and more static between me and everyone and I'm just an ear to some people. Anyways, UIL is coming up and All-Region is creeping its way, which both have me sweating bullets because I really don't have time to be practicing this stuff. I try to fit everything in as best I can, but it gets kinda bad. Maybe I'm just trying to hard. I get kinda worried that I'm going to burn myself out one of these days.
Yeah, plus I've been kinda upset because my sister was diagnosed with epilepsy and one of my cousins died. I only recently got to know Frankie (on my mom's side), but the guy had 3 little girls, was only in his 30's, and was the nicest and coolest guy I've ever met. He kind of reminded me of Mr. Zellman (my old REACH teacher) in that he was really good at getting people to laugh. Then there's my sister... God, I hope Meaghan is alright. The doctors say they're not going to give her medicine because this is a case where she can actually grow out of it and it was only triggered because she partied a little too hard on a too little sleep. It just gets me a little nervous since her trama way back during her college years in Washington. That was a really unsettling time for everyone. On top of all that, it gets me wondering if I might be latently epileptic as well. My parents keep reassuring me that that's unreasonable, but I can't help associating with my sister (since I find it so hard with the other two siblings). I guess I would have probably known by now since I'm so bad about getting enough sleep, heh.
Ah yeah... I am SO torn about something. Ok, on one hand, this thing from the past, which every now and then (rarely) comes up, and it makes me happy for some reason, unbeknownst to me as to why. Then there's this other thing in my life that makes me happy, but I can't say which I like more simply because I don't really know. So to hold onto the past that I spent many months obsessing over and wait, or to move on.
Ha, wow... talk about blunt. Well whatever, I think I just wanted to get that out there considering I have no real intention of openly telling anyone about this journal, even though It's been a while since I updated the blogspot. Oh well. Sleep Time.