Reasons
Well I have finnally figured out why I "fall in love" so quickly it just hit me 2 minutes ago and I need to write this down....type whatever. I "fall in love" quickly because I'm afraid of loss, I lost my brother and I didn't get to show him how much i really loved him. I lost my Grandfather and I felt like I did nothing but take from him. I lost my stepfather and all I used him for were excuses and money :(. I'm a prick. To top off everything else I do stupid shit and get bitched at for it, maybe I should just become a hermit..... Life would seem so much simpler. Well either way its impossible i need money....my job....and i need an education, not that i don't have one,....school....Things would be so much easier if other people lived my life for me cause then they'd know the right decisions and just do em, but me ....oh no no no, i have to be a fuckin procrastinator, I never do my homework, almost, I'm in the fuckin 11th grade cause i couldn't read in 1st. I wanna know am I a dumbass, or do I just have the worst things wrong with me? Well Heather I'm sorry you saw what I did, it was dumb but i did it. Believe it or not I do really like you and I know i say it alot but its true your personality overcomes that of any woman i know, We are a lot alike, except i make stupid decisions and have hard times rectifying them, whereas you seem to do pretty well for yourself (not sarcastically). I love ya ~Tom