I don't know what's wrong with me...
It seems like every year at around this time, I get some weird craving for listening to Christmas music. And of course, every time I give in, I get really emotional.
I don't know why, but I just can't even explain how Christmas music makes me feel when I listen to it.
I wasn't brought up with what I'd think most people would call "normal" Christmas music. You know what I'm talking about. The kind that you can hear in the mall starting pretty much in early November. Things like Rudolf the Red-Nosed Reindeer and things like that.
The kind of Christmas music I was brought up with is mostly instrumental, though not all of it is. My parents brought me up with artists like Mannheim Steamroller and CDs like A Winter's Solstice IV and the Merry Arizona CDs. Recently, we've also added the Trans Siberian Orchestra to the list which is also not "normal" Christmas music.
I've tried to explain how this music makes me feel, but I don't think anyone fully understands. If I listen to it this time of the year, I always end up picturing lots of specific Christmas scenes in which we were listening to the specific song. For example, I remember listening to the song I'm listening to now one year after decorating our tree. It was dark by then and the only lights we had on in the entire house were the Christmas tree lights and the lights in the windows. My mom and I were laying under the tree looking up at it and wearing Santa hats.
Anyway, it's really hard to explain, but when I listen to the music, and some of the songs specifically (like almost every single one on the Winter's Solstice CD), I get this weird tugging feeling in my chest and I get so emotional I almost start crying. And if anyone were to ask me to describe Christmas, I would literally play one of these songs. One of the ones that I think describes Christmas the best is Carol of the Bells by the Windham Hills Artists from the A Winter's Solstice IV CD.
Christmas is my favorite holiday, but it definitely isn't because of the gifts or shopping or anything like that. It's purely because of the music, the decorations/ambiance, and the feel of it.
But I'm going to stop going on about Christmas music now, since it's two in the morning and there are still a few things I'd like to do before I go to bed.
In other news, my left eye has been hurting every so often for the past two days. I don't know why it is doing it or how to describe it, but it is not a pleasant feeling. Also, I'm working on writing a story and I just finished writing the third chapter for the first draft (I'm going to end up rewriting the entire thing, but I kind of just want to get all my thoughts down before I start seriously working on it). I found a site online that tells you how to set up the margins in word for paperback books, so I did that and right now I have 24 pages.
One last thing, I have to ward you now that when it gets closer to Christmas, you will probably see at least one more post on Christmas music, because I just can't help myself.
I don't know why, but I just can't even explain how Christmas music makes me feel when I listen to it.
I wasn't brought up with what I'd think most people would call "normal" Christmas music. You know what I'm talking about. The kind that you can hear in the mall starting pretty much in early November. Things like Rudolf the Red-Nosed Reindeer and things like that.
The kind of Christmas music I was brought up with is mostly instrumental, though not all of it is. My parents brought me up with artists like Mannheim Steamroller and CDs like A Winter's Solstice IV and the Merry Arizona CDs. Recently, we've also added the Trans Siberian Orchestra to the list which is also not "normal" Christmas music.
I've tried to explain how this music makes me feel, but I don't think anyone fully understands. If I listen to it this time of the year, I always end up picturing lots of specific Christmas scenes in which we were listening to the specific song. For example, I remember listening to the song I'm listening to now one year after decorating our tree. It was dark by then and the only lights we had on in the entire house were the Christmas tree lights and the lights in the windows. My mom and I were laying under the tree looking up at it and wearing Santa hats.
Anyway, it's really hard to explain, but when I listen to the music, and some of the songs specifically (like almost every single one on the Winter's Solstice CD), I get this weird tugging feeling in my chest and I get so emotional I almost start crying. And if anyone were to ask me to describe Christmas, I would literally play one of these songs. One of the ones that I think describes Christmas the best is Carol of the Bells by the Windham Hills Artists from the A Winter's Solstice IV CD.
Christmas is my favorite holiday, but it definitely isn't because of the gifts or shopping or anything like that. It's purely because of the music, the decorations/ambiance, and the feel of it.
But I'm going to stop going on about Christmas music now, since it's two in the morning and there are still a few things I'd like to do before I go to bed.
In other news, my left eye has been hurting every so often for the past two days. I don't know why it is doing it or how to describe it, but it is not a pleasant feeling. Also, I'm working on writing a story and I just finished writing the third chapter for the first draft (I'm going to end up rewriting the entire thing, but I kind of just want to get all my thoughts down before I start seriously working on it). I found a site online that tells you how to set up the margins in word for paperback books, so I did that and right now I have 24 pages.
One last thing, I have to ward you now that when it gets closer to Christmas, you will probably see at least one more post on Christmas music, because I just can't help myself.