Another Year in the Trenches
Little post update.
I have not made the choices right for myself. Not by a long shot. Shit. Not by yards.
Eh. I'm drinking myself to death. I am as depressed and lost as ever. Just maybe not so pretentious when blogging anymore.
Personal troubles up the ass. I know I can sustain as long as I don't let them interfere with my work. But lets see. As for those troubles, a brief recap:
1. None of my friends care to contact me or actually do things with me ( unless, of course I go to their house and bang on their door till someone wakes up and then we can hang out and do nothing important or fun at all for hours ).
2. My brother being one of those friends. But he wants to hang out as long as I'm bringing the beer.
3. This girl from work who I liked a lot became interested in me and led me on for a while then one day stopped liking me. Now my presence either pisses her off or humors her every day.
4. Mom wants to kick me out again. She will change her mind and persist that I stay later though ( probably because i pay all the bills and half the rent for her ).
The only thing worth it right now is job. Everything else failing. Depression worse than ever. I think I hate life. I know I hate myself. Want release.
ps- on the upside I really like this new singer Matt Kearney. good stuff.
I have not made the choices right for myself. Not by a long shot. Shit. Not by yards.
Eh. I'm drinking myself to death. I am as depressed and lost as ever. Just maybe not so pretentious when blogging anymore.
Personal troubles up the ass. I know I can sustain as long as I don't let them interfere with my work. But lets see. As for those troubles, a brief recap:
1. None of my friends care to contact me or actually do things with me ( unless, of course I go to their house and bang on their door till someone wakes up and then we can hang out and do nothing important or fun at all for hours ).
2. My brother being one of those friends. But he wants to hang out as long as I'm bringing the beer.
3. This girl from work who I liked a lot became interested in me and led me on for a while then one day stopped liking me. Now my presence either pisses her off or humors her every day.
4. Mom wants to kick me out again. She will change her mind and persist that I stay later though ( probably because i pay all the bills and half the rent for her ).
The only thing worth it right now is job. Everything else failing. Depression worse than ever. I think I hate life. I know I hate myself. Want release.
ps- on the upside I really like this new singer Matt Kearney. good stuff.