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running straight into night as light runs straight into the dark
the warm wind smooth across my face as i race into the dark
your eyes and all your bodyparts, your heart fades into the dark
as i recognize what lies in all those places in the dark
...
i take a few more steps in the right direction and find out a little bit more about myself. i wonder if lucky number seven has anything to do with it.
as it suits me, i take the good weather as a portent for the coming months. we scraped out of winter by the skin of our teeth. im able to catch my breath. im able to see you smile for me.
the spell of winter seems to be breaking. blankets and sheets dont seem as urgent anymore. i open the windows with ease. your touch is warm.
...
the feeling syncs up with me until i can't distinguish myself from the memory. i see myself trapped inside, wondering how to shake free. i try to gain as much momentum as possible. shutting it out is a reflex to me now. i try to protect it. try to hide it from everyone. especially myself.
lies try to bubble out of me. some of them i catch in my throat but a few squeek by.
...
she says something about the eye that changed my whole perception of god.
staring deep into what i believe is the soul, the part that reflects, i see him. i see every minor detail reflected back to me. nothing can stop me now.
...
i try to find the center of this new feeling. maybe the core if it is buried deep within an old memory of betrayal. maybe its nothing.
i let your kisses wash over me. they seem to stop the bleeding, but maybe i was never cut to begin with.
i barely gasp in your ear what my heart is singing to me. i drop all the crosses i thought i needed to bear. i leave the miscarriages i was dragging behind. i dont need them now. i wont ever need them again.
...
transmit your kiss
through your open lips
and dont miss.
hit the mark
of my open heart
lets start.
...
..
.
the warm wind smooth across my face as i race into the dark
your eyes and all your bodyparts, your heart fades into the dark
as i recognize what lies in all those places in the dark
...
i take a few more steps in the right direction and find out a little bit more about myself. i wonder if lucky number seven has anything to do with it.
as it suits me, i take the good weather as a portent for the coming months. we scraped out of winter by the skin of our teeth. im able to catch my breath. im able to see you smile for me.
the spell of winter seems to be breaking. blankets and sheets dont seem as urgent anymore. i open the windows with ease. your touch is warm.
...
the feeling syncs up with me until i can't distinguish myself from the memory. i see myself trapped inside, wondering how to shake free. i try to gain as much momentum as possible. shutting it out is a reflex to me now. i try to protect it. try to hide it from everyone. especially myself.
lies try to bubble out of me. some of them i catch in my throat but a few squeek by.
...
she says something about the eye that changed my whole perception of god.
staring deep into what i believe is the soul, the part that reflects, i see him. i see every minor detail reflected back to me. nothing can stop me now.
...
i try to find the center of this new feeling. maybe the core if it is buried deep within an old memory of betrayal. maybe its nothing.
i let your kisses wash over me. they seem to stop the bleeding, but maybe i was never cut to begin with.
i barely gasp in your ear what my heart is singing to me. i drop all the crosses i thought i needed to bear. i leave the miscarriages i was dragging behind. i dont need them now. i wont ever need them again.
...
transmit your kiss
through your open lips
and dont miss.
hit the mark
of my open heart
lets start.
...
..
.