feeling out of it again.
what happened to promises of forever..? of not leaving your side, and sticking with you through thick and thin? what happened to accompanying laughs and comforting shoulders and smiles that says "i understand you". i thought after everything we've been through, i thought i'd be the one you'd choose to be with at the end of the day. i thought i'd be the opinion that would matter to you. i guess not. you warned me anyway, didn't you? you warned me that you push people away and yet i couldn't find it in myself to not get hurt. because i believe i'd be the different one from all the others. i thought i was going to be the special one. guess not. just another hopeless fantasy i indulged myself in and now i keep hurting myself over and over because i couldn't take it.
//sorryfortheemopost
//itendtomakethingsalittletoodramaticthantheyoughttobe
//butican'thelpmyselfifi'mhurt