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[d1aryofag1rl]

slowly the pen touches paper
in the guidance of the words that you write
memories roll in, of the things you once did
and who you had them shared with
is somebody thinking of you?
did i bother telling you this
with the words that cross teeth and jump lips?
a poor choice of words, in wanting to tell you anything
but words don't come with ease, they're forever my hurt
would it really matter
if you were to count the days left with your hands?
your focus secure and the loves you left, well
smiles staged in photographs here until

you, you left the light on
there's a chance i might have tripped
you were there to hold on

ignoring the words of your obnoxious little brother
kill or be killed spilled the words from your mother
i'll lay awake for awhile
i'll leave the light on for awhile
but you couldn't last a lifetime
caught between here and the days of it
carving her name across your arm with every wish
it's hit or miss...her
i told you so
i measured distance in lines departing the rest of my life

but you, you, you...you had better things to do
liar liar liar liar

if you get put to sleep, like an old dog
you're better off
if you get put to sleep
i've been cautious with the words i extend
allow this year before the world starts to end

your father's dead
he passed in his sleep
and i woke to the sounds of her crying

your father's dead
he passed in his sleep

pray for us all