i hate my life
I talked to Alex last night.
He asked me how Aaron and me were. When I told him fine he asked me why the fuck I was still with that kid. Sounds promising right?
For awhile I stopped reading his journal, because I couldn't deal with reading about him and other girls who aren't me. But this morning I read them. Not gonna lie, it sucked.
I do this to myself.
I guess now I feel like I'm going to have to ask him about it. Which sucks because after that day at Chili's I felt like everything has been fine. Something in him changes when he cheats on me, and I haven't seen that. Or maybe I'm just being dumb? All I need to hear is that no he isn't seeing Angela outside of his work shit. And no since April 8 he has not kissed any other girl but me. THATS ALL I WANT.
oh this is ridiculous. I wish I had never talked to Alex.
This potential cheating on me crap is getting old. Especially since I don't think he is.
plans with Ms. Alex this afternoon and I'm very excited about it. I was so used to seeing her every day and now I'm basically going through withdrawels. 3:15 we're picking up the boyfriend. Because despite my conversation last night, it's exactly like what I told Alex (the boy one not MY Alex) I can't not be with him. I can't explain it but when I'm with him I'm happy. Always. Plus obviously I need to just check up on some things.
hahaha. Oh today shall be interesting.
Good news is I'm in a terrific mood. :)
CHEERS!
He asked me how Aaron and me were. When I told him fine he asked me why the fuck I was still with that kid. Sounds promising right?
For awhile I stopped reading his journal, because I couldn't deal with reading about him and other girls who aren't me. But this morning I read them. Not gonna lie, it sucked.
I do this to myself.
I guess now I feel like I'm going to have to ask him about it. Which sucks because after that day at Chili's I felt like everything has been fine. Something in him changes when he cheats on me, and I haven't seen that. Or maybe I'm just being dumb? All I need to hear is that no he isn't seeing Angela outside of his work shit. And no since April 8 he has not kissed any other girl but me. THATS ALL I WANT.
oh this is ridiculous. I wish I had never talked to Alex.
This potential cheating on me crap is getting old. Especially since I don't think he is.
plans with Ms. Alex this afternoon and I'm very excited about it. I was so used to seeing her every day and now I'm basically going through withdrawels. 3:15 we're picking up the boyfriend. Because despite my conversation last night, it's exactly like what I told Alex (the boy one not MY Alex) I can't not be with him. I can't explain it but when I'm with him I'm happy. Always. Plus obviously I need to just check up on some things.
hahaha. Oh today shall be interesting.
Good news is I'm in a terrific mood. :)
CHEERS!