You're poison
thursday night was one of the best nights out ive had. i drank a bottle of wine to myself. then a few double vodkas and red devil and i was a mess. but in a fun, dancey, giggle, slouchy, floloppy way. i couldnt open the girls toilet door, i was pushing with all my might but it wouldnt budge but i got there in the end. anyway, last thursday emily spent hours cheating and crying, this thursday danie sat in toilets crying for an hour and i sat with her, emily came now and again, but was too busy cheating on her bf!!!!!!!!!
so really that dampened my night and i personally dont think its fair, i hope they ask to go out this coming thursday as i will make my point to them loud and clear!!!!!!!!!!
i stayed at phils thurs night, he was in a mood with me because i apparently acted as if he wasnt there....NOW YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL!! but i didnt do it on purpose. then we had a bit of a heart to heart again, and he said he was scared i'd leave, or it wouldnt work etc etc and it took me ages to get it out of him but the thing hes most scared of is darren wanting me back and i told me "THAT AINT EEEEEEEVER GONNA HAPPEN!!!" and he was like "yeah but what about you.....wanting him!!" and i found myself trying to explain to him how much i cared for darren and how much he hurt/hurts me. and blah.
then we talked more and he said he couldnt see it going anywhere and....
i fucking cried, i just burst into tears. over a guy i didnt think i cared that much about. now im confused!!!
and i turned away from him and he got upset coz thats apparently not really what he meant but i didnt let him finish so i dont know. he said something about:
phil - "i cant see this working out if there are certain factors in the way, if there arent those factors i can see us going a long way!!"
me-but there are those factors (uni, him moving working etc)
phil - are there tho? i dont think there has to be!!
so im very confused and need to bring up the convo again when we have a chance to see eachother but right nows not a good time as hes busy with uni all this week!
oh and the next morning phil told me he was very embarressed by my general behaviour thursday night. and that...that really fucking pissed me off. and he doesnt like my septum ring.
what ya think?
why am i with this guy?
whats going on?
sorry i cant comment on peoples shit but my comp is being a serious bitch!!!!!!!!
xxx
so really that dampened my night and i personally dont think its fair, i hope they ask to go out this coming thursday as i will make my point to them loud and clear!!!!!!!!!!
i stayed at phils thurs night, he was in a mood with me because i apparently acted as if he wasnt there....NOW YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL!! but i didnt do it on purpose. then we had a bit of a heart to heart again, and he said he was scared i'd leave, or it wouldnt work etc etc and it took me ages to get it out of him but the thing hes most scared of is darren wanting me back and i told me "THAT AINT EEEEEEEVER GONNA HAPPEN!!!" and he was like "yeah but what about you.....wanting him!!" and i found myself trying to explain to him how much i cared for darren and how much he hurt/hurts me. and blah.
then we talked more and he said he couldnt see it going anywhere and....
i fucking cried, i just burst into tears. over a guy i didnt think i cared that much about. now im confused!!!
and i turned away from him and he got upset coz thats apparently not really what he meant but i didnt let him finish so i dont know. he said something about:
phil - "i cant see this working out if there are certain factors in the way, if there arent those factors i can see us going a long way!!"
me-but there are those factors (uni, him moving working etc)
phil - are there tho? i dont think there has to be!!
so im very confused and need to bring up the convo again when we have a chance to see eachother but right nows not a good time as hes busy with uni all this week!
oh and the next morning phil told me he was very embarressed by my general behaviour thursday night. and that...that really fucking pissed me off. and he doesnt like my septum ring.
what ya think?
why am i with this guy?
whats going on?
sorry i cant comment on peoples shit but my comp is being a serious bitch!!!!!!!!
xxx