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As the time draws nearer for me to go over, i feel more and more apprehensive about leaving... Thoughts of I am actually quite happy and comfortable here... I quite like my work now ( yesh even with the crazy hours), I enjoy doing general insurance, I enjoy working under my manager, prob cos I feel tt his style suit me.. And he does know his stuff.. so in turn I get to learn about stuff... I feel that the support is there... and maybe also I have slowly adapt to EY now... I take time to adapt.. or rather maybe I am finding my work more challenging and interesting.. and of cos.. my mommy! hai... when I see her cookin noodles for me at 11pm, peeling grapes for me after tt.. even though it is way pass her bed time.. simply cos her daughter worked late and was hungry.. I feel very sad leaving all this.. and not to mention the money! The next pay jump, the bonus.. and the comfort zone.. I keep tellin myself that I shld be glad of trying new stuff... and not just be comfortable.. and that working this type of hours is nt really healthy and good... I guess it is because I am not unhappy now, that is why I dun feel e need for a change of envrionment. Things and people that have been bothering me... are no longer bothering me... Then I tell myself if i stay on without a change, my life will continue like this...working day in and day out.. squeezin ot sme tiem to call my friends... spending wkend watchin tv and rotting jsut because I am too tired from work.. goin on in audit for another 1 or 2 years or more if I cont to be single.. But I will be rich.. hahaha. Yep I am pretty sure I will be promoted in Jul..get my bonus.. and another pay increment adn revision.. it really does sound tempting... money with no life.. haha.
But anyway it is too late now, air ticket has been bought, visa has been approved, start date has been confirmed... so nothign left but to go ahead with my plans.. I am sure as at now, my ex-kpmg mgr will tell me... tis is e result of nt thinkin carefully before i make the decison... decision bring consequences.. but I feel tt it is more of a matter of no regrets.. and who knwo wat e future will bring? And as I just told my manager, if i dun like it there, i will come back and find him again, i hope he will be a partner then heehee. Yesh he juz asked me to consider carefully... he did mention to me when i first tell him of my intention to tender but he didnt really say anything more... I was tellin my snr maybe it was because i wasnt really workin under him then, now I am and workign very very hard, he is appreciatiing me more.. but as i told my mom I am nt at tt level where EY will pay to keep me hahahha. But he is a nice guy, he is genuienly concern about me, about how I would feel leaving my life here.. am i sure abt it, rather then keepin me here so tt i can work for him... hmm.. maybe tt explain e reluctance to leave my work... it is hard to find a good boss nowadays...
But anyway it is too late now, air ticket has been bought, visa has been approved, start date has been confirmed... so nothign left but to go ahead with my plans.. I am sure as at now, my ex-kpmg mgr will tell me... tis is e result of nt thinkin carefully before i make the decison... decision bring consequences.. but I feel tt it is more of a matter of no regrets.. and who knwo wat e future will bring? And as I just told my manager, if i dun like it there, i will come back and find him again, i hope he will be a partner then heehee. Yesh he juz asked me to consider carefully... he did mention to me when i first tell him of my intention to tender but he didnt really say anything more... I was tellin my snr maybe it was because i wasnt really workin under him then, now I am and workign very very hard, he is appreciatiing me more.. but as i told my mom I am nt at tt level where EY will pay to keep me hahahha. But he is a nice guy, he is genuienly concern about me, about how I would feel leaving my life here.. am i sure abt it, rather then keepin me here so tt i can work for him... hmm.. maybe tt explain e reluctance to leave my work... it is hard to find a good boss nowadays...