home again
I just got back from an awesome trip home… finally home… it was over so fast… it didn’t feel like I hadn’t been there since April! It felt like I had never left! I miss it so much more when I am there… it seems weird but true… because all that I miss-out of… all the expressions and laughter and love and warmth… even peculiar annoyances and the heart-ache of saying goodbye… every emotion and feeling I receive and give in a specific and personal way with certain individuals and in certain situations become so evident when I experience life afresh around my family and friends and situations at home that I had sort of forgotten about… or at least forgotten the strength of… the clarity of… and I feel the same thing after being away from my new home in Davis… and old home of Winnipeg… and I'm sure would feel the same about returning to my temporary homes of Trois Pistole and Lac Brochet… not even painful emotion is something I dislike or regret or shrink away from… I feel so privileged to soak up all of it… the good and the bad… because with the ups and downs… I feel that I am truly living… that through the sacrifice of saying so many goodbyes, I can say so many hellos…