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so I went to the Mariner's game Tuesday with TC and his sister... or at least I thought that was all who was going with us... he brought along the girl he's interested in. so basically I was miserable the entire time and trying not to be. I think his sister suspects, or her suspicions were affirmed by my actions. I tried really hard not to show how much the girl being there hurt, but it's a hurt I've never been able to hide very well. I just hope that none there thought I was angry with them. My brother brought up the idea that maybe TC brought her along to see if I would get jealous, I don't get jealous though, I just get hurt and quiet. TC is my friend first, any other feelings I may have come second. I honestly just want him to be happy... I'm just beginning to think his happiness will make me miserable...
I know I've talked this over with Kimi and my family, but I have to write it out because, well it's still bugging me. Why couldn't he have chosen someone I could strongly-dislike on principle? why does she have to be so freakin' nice? And WHY does all this have to happen just when I was starting to go to the single's ward again?! (she's IN that singles ward!!!!)
I’m sorry you guys, it would seem that I only remember that I have a blog when I’m sad/lonely/depressed/pissed…
I know I've talked this over with Kimi and my family, but I have to write it out because, well it's still bugging me. Why couldn't he have chosen someone I could strongly-dislike on principle? why does she have to be so freakin' nice? And WHY does all this have to happen just when I was starting to go to the single's ward again?! (she's IN that singles ward!!!!)
I’m sorry you guys, it would seem that I only remember that I have a blog when I’m sad/lonely/depressed/pissed…