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This is extremely exciting for me. I love the books, can't wait for the movie and even wrote the beginings of mini-series based on them for my Writing for Television class last semester.
So, yeah, the cool part is for up to 12 days anyone can aswer questions about me and make my daemon change...and then it freakin' settles! I'm way too excited about that.
In other news Kathleen wants me to revamp everything with my senior project. She didn't actually say I had to but that what I handed into her was just "fine" and showed a "lack of rigor". I get very self hating about my writing so I can't say she's wrong but I hate her attitude about it. The last time we had a big meeting I felt like she didn't want me to change much, that she thought a few adjustments in characters and whatever would make it work. Apparently she took it for granted that I would have remember that to her revising means rewriting. She also basically said that I've never shown enough "maturity as a writer" and I certainly have the tools and understanding to but this doesn't show it.
So I'm moping and worrying about it but I know I've got to forgo most of these last few weeks of fun time because, if anything, I have to be great in spite of her. I can't have my senior project, or myself have a "lack of rigor". So screw her. Sure, I completely feel torn down and afraid that I don't have it in me. But I'm so scared about everything else in my life. I'm so numb and neurotic and avoidant and touchy about the future that I can't just...not do this. Last night I sat and watch Ninja Warrior and it inspired me to not give up, lol. I feel hopeless, but I have no choice but to keep moving on.
The greatest inspiration Kathleen ever gave me was the motivation to hate her.
So, yeah, the cool part is for up to 12 days anyone can aswer questions about me and make my daemon change...and then it freakin' settles! I'm way too excited about that.
In other news Kathleen wants me to revamp everything with my senior project. She didn't actually say I had to but that what I handed into her was just "fine" and showed a "lack of rigor". I get very self hating about my writing so I can't say she's wrong but I hate her attitude about it. The last time we had a big meeting I felt like she didn't want me to change much, that she thought a few adjustments in characters and whatever would make it work. Apparently she took it for granted that I would have remember that to her revising means rewriting. She also basically said that I've never shown enough "maturity as a writer" and I certainly have the tools and understanding to but this doesn't show it.
So I'm moping and worrying about it but I know I've got to forgo most of these last few weeks of fun time because, if anything, I have to be great in spite of her. I can't have my senior project, or myself have a "lack of rigor". So screw her. Sure, I completely feel torn down and afraid that I don't have it in me. But I'm so scared about everything else in my life. I'm so numb and neurotic and avoidant and touchy about the future that I can't just...not do this. Last night I sat and watch Ninja Warrior and it inspired me to not give up, lol. I feel hopeless, but I have no choice but to keep moving on.
The greatest inspiration Kathleen ever gave me was the motivation to hate her.