And...fuck.
So Virginia was really turning out to be much nicer than usual. I got a sweet digital camera and took pictures of my family. We even went ice skating this morning before returning to NY and I was complimented on my skating skills. (not much, but I didn't fall and I enjoyed myself). Back in NY after the trip on the bus I was so happy sitting with my family eating chinese food until I realized that I lost my wallet, presumably on the bus. (I remembered looking at my change in the rest stop considering playing Ms. Pacman). This time at least I know the name of the bus company and I canceled my credit cards (I also found out I have an overdraft...I have the money to pay it but that still seriously sucks. I should have learned my lesson. I thought I did. But in the flurry of christmas shopping just...didn't think.) So once again, there goes a whole bunch of memorabilia (most likely...I mean, it could get returned) my school keys ( which means A HUGE fee since I live in alumni) and basically another wack on my self esteem. My digital camera I thought to put in the zipper comparment of my bag but my wallet I just put where I always do and had it on my lap. I basically feel like screaming. I honestly never thought to just put my wallet in the zipper comparment. I didn't seem like it could fit or was easy enough access or something. I don't understand. And I don't understand how I couldn't notice my huge wallet falling out. I wasn't even asleep.
UGH. The only thing I can do is learn from my mistakes but it does feel really shitty since I keep making the same ones. The sad thing is...I really do feel like I try to keep track of things. Usually when I leave somewhere I take an extra long time so I don't forget something. But always when I don't something's gone. I feel like it shouldn't have to be this much of struggle but I must be wrong.
Anyway, I'm gonna be even tighter for money this break than I thought which really sucks but, well, I reap what I sow.
I just hope I can get the wallet returned so I don't have to get the keys replaced too. On of the worst parts is thinking that my friends and family don't trust me with nice things- which I why I took such care to put my camera and jewlery away in my zipper compartment and didn't take my computer down to VA. Or that people just think I'm an absolute ditz. I know I shouldn't care so much what everyone thinks and that we have our good sides and our bad sides it's just UGH. I just wish it never happened.
Oh and the icon- it's by Kim. I got a really sweet christmas card from Anne aka perhael which included a picture of Chase thinking about being Slytherin and Snape, Harry, Hermione and Ron all wearing christmas hats. It said to not give up on my dreams and that I have it in me so you can imagine how nice that felt after this whole thing.
UGH. The only thing I can do is learn from my mistakes but it does feel really shitty since I keep making the same ones. The sad thing is...I really do feel like I try to keep track of things. Usually when I leave somewhere I take an extra long time so I don't forget something. But always when I don't something's gone. I feel like it shouldn't have to be this much of struggle but I must be wrong.
Anyway, I'm gonna be even tighter for money this break than I thought which really sucks but, well, I reap what I sow.
I just hope I can get the wallet returned so I don't have to get the keys replaced too. On of the worst parts is thinking that my friends and family don't trust me with nice things- which I why I took such care to put my camera and jewlery away in my zipper compartment and didn't take my computer down to VA. Or that people just think I'm an absolute ditz. I know I shouldn't care so much what everyone thinks and that we have our good sides and our bad sides it's just UGH. I just wish it never happened.
Oh and the icon- it's by Kim. I got a really sweet christmas card from Anne aka perhael which included a picture of Chase thinking about being Slytherin and Snape, Harry, Hermione and Ron all wearing christmas hats. It said to not give up on my dreams and that I have it in me so you can imagine how nice that felt after this whole thing.