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I realize I'm kind of jinxing myself by saying this but...life isn't bad at the moment. Well, not bad isn't exactly the word, I guess. I'm stressed and searching and sometimes obnoxious. Like, okay, the other day I was stressed out and upset about a bunch of things. So I went to the library and I wrote! Can you imagine? I walked in the rain and then I just wrote. I've been having this feeling some days like...well, maybe I am really a writer. Having so many projects is scary...my writing for television project is only like eleven pages long still but...well, I'm working on a lot of things and I know I still need a lot of work...I can feel the critism coming from Kathleen on my senior project...I'm gonna try not to be too crushed, but it's hard not to. I'm never quite there. Never quite perfect. But...when Jeanne and Laura read something I read and fangirl over it, or you know, comment about something in it and I think "THAT'S WHAT I ACTUACLLY MEANT!" Or when I read something aloud in class and some random classmates are like "I really liked it, that was a great scene..." Well. They say write for yourself and I'm finally learning to do that again. And in the process, maybe as one of the most commercial of all forms of writing, I'm starting to see who my audience is...
People my age? People like me...
If I were going to the theatre, what might I like to see? Huh.
As far as people in my life go, I really like them. I know this is asking for some bad luck by saying this...but the drama really isn't that bad anymore. With almost anyone.
I'm still thinking about how I trust people. And how I don't. And just...how much time I guess, we spend, I spend talking about others and judging others. And how much I just like to be complimented...to think someone is thinking something nice about me. And how I hide.
Pretty immature, I guess, yeah.
How we're all kids playing grownup and it's becoming less and less of a game.
Only, I suspect that all adults are just that. Kids playing house. Playing at going to work. Playing a boss. At President. At criminal. Whatever.
Okay, I maybe need to stop with that now.
Gutair Hero 2 has taken over my free time in a lovely way. As well as my randomly renewed obsession with Sex and the City. (Because I'm, ya know, not eighteen anymore...)
It will be very nice when I get my computer. Then my little hobbit hole with be perfect!
Oh yeah, and Vera got a livejournal so shout out to Vera...lol. A couple of years too late on the trends, eh? ;)
Seriously though, Vera pwns you all. Always. In everything. No matter what.
Love,
Jasmine
People my age? People like me...
If I were going to the theatre, what might I like to see? Huh.
As far as people in my life go, I really like them. I know this is asking for some bad luck by saying this...but the drama really isn't that bad anymore. With almost anyone.
I'm still thinking about how I trust people. And how I don't. And just...how much time I guess, we spend, I spend talking about others and judging others. And how much I just like to be complimented...to think someone is thinking something nice about me. And how I hide.
Pretty immature, I guess, yeah.
How we're all kids playing grownup and it's becoming less and less of a game.
Only, I suspect that all adults are just that. Kids playing house. Playing at going to work. Playing a boss. At President. At criminal. Whatever.
Okay, I maybe need to stop with that now.
Gutair Hero 2 has taken over my free time in a lovely way. As well as my randomly renewed obsession with Sex and the City. (Because I'm, ya know, not eighteen anymore...)
It will be very nice when I get my computer. Then my little hobbit hole with be perfect!
Oh yeah, and Vera got a livejournal so shout out to Vera...lol. A couple of years too late on the trends, eh? ;)
Seriously though, Vera pwns you all. Always. In everything. No matter what.
Love,
Jasmine