fuck-shit
so........updating. havent done that in a while....so many things have happened in the past 2 months. its so crazy. georgie is in jail...i dont know for how long but all i know is he isnt speaking to me ryte now cuz riding in a car with MY friends is such a f-ing crime oh oh and putting my # in a phone. sorry ill try not to have friends again.that day was august 20th , my little sisters bday and the worst day of my life....i overdosed on my medication which landed me in the hospital for 3 days in intensive care, then to the psych hospital for a week and a half and now i have counseling appts every other week sometimes twice a week......i just wanna smak myself sometimes i hate that i do stupid shit and even better that i cant control it....everyone looks at me and thinks thats the girl who cuts her self or the one who has scars all over her arm....get a fucking grip people dont even know half of it.......my friends get mad but....i cant help it.... i like it..... i dont do it for attention... i dont like people noticing but what am i supposed to do. i wanna do it and when i want to i have to cuz i like feen for it....i sound like a dumb psychopath with no thought toward anything....i just hate the way people look at you and they think they know....but they really dont. georgie knows...he knows everything what im gonna say before i can even speak what im thinking and if im hiding somehting......ghe can see right through me.... he knows me better than anyone in the world....i miss him....*tear*.....i messed up so bad and cant fix it....but i can still try ryte? i know he still loves me....and so does he. things are just really messed up ryte now....but who knows maybe they'll be better....sOoN hopefully******<3~~me~~