I really love the internet. I know I have read your story before, in glimpses over the last few years, but it is still shocking to me how similar our stories are. It is amazing the timing of this too, over the last few weeks I have been thinking back on my journey, wondering if I still feel the same way about things. I have become a lot more.. um.. forgiving of people and their shortcomings in the last few years. I have been holding people to a more human standard, a more honest standard. In my new circle of friends, all of us are non-believers (which is amazing too, because I really only knew Zac and my internet friends as atheists before), and one of them reminds me a bit of me from a few years ago, calling believers kind of stupid and believing in absolutes about the world around us.. which is fine, I am not going to tell her what to believe-- I am realizing how calmer I feel to not get riled up about the little details. The big picture still riles me up, but the little errors that mean almost nothing aren't enough to send me into rage face anymore.
Maybe it is patience, maybe it is awareness and understanding. Whatever it is, I feel really glad that even though I do believe in one absolute that I'll likely never change my mind about (no god) I can still change my mind and my feelings toward other things.
No, it's great! I feel the same way--I think the anger is something a lot of people feel when they first leave faith, but it can't be a stopping place. Ultimately, you have to get past it and I'm glad I have and that you have.
Maybe it is patience, maybe it is awareness and understanding. Whatever it is, I feel really glad that even though I do believe in one absolute that I'll likely never change my mind about (no god) I can still change my mind and my feelings toward other things.
Sorry, I didn't mean to make this about me.
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