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Many changes have occurred in my life. To begin, I'm so in love with a wonderful man. And, yes, it is reciprocated! We just meld socially, sexually, financially and spiritually. We worked really hard to get me through my insecurities about love and I've never had a man stand by me like he has. FINALLY, the yolk of my egg.
My darling Smokey, the cat, came home for a few short months only to die of unknown causes. I was distraught. I kept feeling like I was being silly for crying over a pet. But the site of finding him not breathing and laying peacefully as if he were sleeping would not leave my mind.
I've been tettering on moving in to the house that Josh built. Its a beautiful home that together we decorated, painted, and basically anticipated the move in day. Part of me feels as if I am being separated at the seams leaving the swamp. I suppose its mostly the memories of the past that lie within the trees. So hard to let go of them to create new ones in a different space. I'm not selling my place. As strong as my relationship is with Josh, I don't want to give up what I have built in case the bottom falls out which leaves me homeless. Maybe I should not think that way. But as it stands right now, I have two homes. When Josh is away on business I stay in the swamp. When he's home, I stay with him. We're okay with this, but friends and family say I'm playing with fire. I don't see where its really any of their business if we are comfortable with the situation as it is.
Michael and Holly are due June 28th and have begun the nesting thang awaiting the birth of their son, Jakob Shawn. I'm excited for them as they start on their path of familyhood. I peek in the baby's room every now and then just to look at the little clothes hanging in the closet. They are so cute!
My day is about to begin. I have a few things to wrap up at work before I begin my new job in a couple of weeks. I'm taking a couple of weeks off to enjoy being a bum at home.
Hope everyone is enjoying the start of warm weather and rainy afternoons. Ah, Louisiana. The heat, the humidity, the summer showers. Makes one long for living in mid-east somewhere comfortable. :)
My darling Smokey, the cat, came home for a few short months only to die of unknown causes. I was distraught. I kept feeling like I was being silly for crying over a pet. But the site of finding him not breathing and laying peacefully as if he were sleeping would not leave my mind.
I've been tettering on moving in to the house that Josh built. Its a beautiful home that together we decorated, painted, and basically anticipated the move in day. Part of me feels as if I am being separated at the seams leaving the swamp. I suppose its mostly the memories of the past that lie within the trees. So hard to let go of them to create new ones in a different space. I'm not selling my place. As strong as my relationship is with Josh, I don't want to give up what I have built in case the bottom falls out which leaves me homeless. Maybe I should not think that way. But as it stands right now, I have two homes. When Josh is away on business I stay in the swamp. When he's home, I stay with him. We're okay with this, but friends and family say I'm playing with fire. I don't see where its really any of their business if we are comfortable with the situation as it is.
Michael and Holly are due June 28th and have begun the nesting thang awaiting the birth of their son, Jakob Shawn. I'm excited for them as they start on their path of familyhood. I peek in the baby's room every now and then just to look at the little clothes hanging in the closet. They are so cute!
My day is about to begin. I have a few things to wrap up at work before I begin my new job in a couple of weeks. I'm taking a couple of weeks off to enjoy being a bum at home.
Hope everyone is enjoying the start of warm weather and rainy afternoons. Ah, Louisiana. The heat, the humidity, the summer showers. Makes one long for living in mid-east somewhere comfortable. :)