Forecast
I've got something to say, and I hope you take the time to listen
I've been out in the yard this morning picking satsumas. My trees this year are fabulously full and plump. I trimmed them back after Katrina and for the first time I don't have fruit dangling on the ground. I nurtured them with lots of nitrogen and some soft talk, and my satsumas are cream of the crop. I'll be visiting the local retirement home with bags of joy for the elders. Its my yearly thanksgiving treat and a way to get rid of the fruit. I even left 3 bags for my garbage collectors who always ask me if they can have one or two. :)
My words get in the way. You can blame it on me if it eases your pain
Matters of the heart didn't pan out as well as I intentionally wanted them to be. I'm an educated woman that has been trying to fit in with the culture of the bayou for many years now. Perhaps it was the female that approached me in the ladies room of a resturant where we were enjoying dinner and asked if I knew she was the other woman. Or maybe it was the snide remark that I needed to buy a nice dress for an upcoming event he invited me to attend. I realized this man doesn't have a clue as to who I am, nor was he making any effort to find out. I graciously bowed out of the relationship and hope the other woman has a nice dress. If not, she can peruse the extra closet I have of cocktail dresses and formals.
But I'm tired of holding on .. this time I'll do it alone you'll see
I've learned a lot in the last year about myself. I don't need someone in my life to be happy. And what I want in a relationship is that feeling of no matter where we are or what we are doing, I'm enjoying the company I am with. I don't want to try to be impressive, or be impressed. Its like having a natural relationship, if you know what I mean? I had that once ... and I suppose now I'm spoiled into having that again. In the meantime though, I've made a life plan for myself and I can say with true conviction that I'm looking more forward to reaching those goals than searching the want ads for a man. I have family and friends who are supportive and keep me quite busy so lonely times are saved for rainy days and thinking about my new dreams.
The first hardest thing, is for me to walk away. But I'll keep moving on to get where I need to be ... so don't look back at me
I've been out in the yard this morning picking satsumas. My trees this year are fabulously full and plump. I trimmed them back after Katrina and for the first time I don't have fruit dangling on the ground. I nurtured them with lots of nitrogen and some soft talk, and my satsumas are cream of the crop. I'll be visiting the local retirement home with bags of joy for the elders. Its my yearly thanksgiving treat and a way to get rid of the fruit. I even left 3 bags for my garbage collectors who always ask me if they can have one or two. :)
My words get in the way. You can blame it on me if it eases your pain
Matters of the heart didn't pan out as well as I intentionally wanted them to be. I'm an educated woman that has been trying to fit in with the culture of the bayou for many years now. Perhaps it was the female that approached me in the ladies room of a resturant where we were enjoying dinner and asked if I knew she was the other woman. Or maybe it was the snide remark that I needed to buy a nice dress for an upcoming event he invited me to attend. I realized this man doesn't have a clue as to who I am, nor was he making any effort to find out. I graciously bowed out of the relationship and hope the other woman has a nice dress. If not, she can peruse the extra closet I have of cocktail dresses and formals.
But I'm tired of holding on .. this time I'll do it alone you'll see
I've learned a lot in the last year about myself. I don't need someone in my life to be happy. And what I want in a relationship is that feeling of no matter where we are or what we are doing, I'm enjoying the company I am with. I don't want to try to be impressive, or be impressed. Its like having a natural relationship, if you know what I mean? I had that once ... and I suppose now I'm spoiled into having that again. In the meantime though, I've made a life plan for myself and I can say with true conviction that I'm looking more forward to reaching those goals than searching the want ads for a man. I have family and friends who are supportive and keep me quite busy so lonely times are saved for rainy days and thinking about my new dreams.
The first hardest thing, is for me to walk away. But I'll keep moving on to get where I need to be ... so don't look back at me