Facebook rant
So .. I've been on facebook for quite sometime. Never really developed a page much until recently. My family found me. My high school alumni's found me. My high school sweetie even found me and there is a part of me that cringes every time I open the site. Don't get me wrong. I loved my high school years, my ex, but some of these people that have added me to facebook I didn't hang out with. Oh lets post pictures from the past and think back of the good ole days. Is there something wrong with me that enjoys keeping those memories in my heart and not wanting to relive those days? Some of these girls were vicious. AND .. they also were always in the group of who can out do who in everything. From sports, to achievements to looks, to boyfriends. And yeah okay that was a long time ago but it seems to me that the trend has continued on facebook. Even the ex boyfriend, who actually found me on myspace first, bugs the bejesus out of me for pictures and to get into the swing of this facebook thing. I don't take many pictures of myself. I enjoy taking pictures of other people, places and things. Even after explaining that, I still get messages to post up! I had to laugh when one of the girls friended me, started an indepth conversation with me, and all I could remember was my god you hated from grade school through high school for reasons unknown and now I'm your long lost buddy? I've gotten messages of how "great" this is to reconnect with old friends. Yeah, if my old friends were actually ON facebook it would be nice but you were never in my elite group of friends.
After high school I graduated from the school of hard knocks. My life hasn't been the pretty picture they paint of their own lives. I wonder if I have a deep seeded jealousy and that is making me offstandish. Do I tell them I lived in a fantasy world for years while mending from the past because I was so numb? Nah, I don't think so. The little white men may come and carry me away in a straight jacket. I love my life now. I'm happy. I'm in love with a wonderful man. And most of all, I'm finally back to being myself. I don't have to pretend anymore, and I'm surely not going to pretend with these people who I haven't seen in years.
ARGGGGG ... why am I so frustrated this morning over this!
After high school I graduated from the school of hard knocks. My life hasn't been the pretty picture they paint of their own lives. I wonder if I have a deep seeded jealousy and that is making me offstandish. Do I tell them I lived in a fantasy world for years while mending from the past because I was so numb? Nah, I don't think so. The little white men may come and carry me away in a straight jacket. I love my life now. I'm happy. I'm in love with a wonderful man. And most of all, I'm finally back to being myself. I don't have to pretend anymore, and I'm surely not going to pretend with these people who I haven't seen in years.
ARGGGGG ... why am I so frustrated this morning over this!