Passing
My Grandfather passed away last night.
My Mom seems to be holding up okay but I don't think it's going to last. I'm pretty upset that I didn't get to say goodbye. I mean, I begged to go last time and was told no. Now I know the reason they refused was not because I was sick with a cold but because my parents felt I'd be inconvenient to have along with my chronic conditions. That pisses me off quite a bit. I mean seriously? You robbed me of saying goodbye because you wanted to go have lunches and dinners and shopping and you didn't think I'd be up to that? So there's a lot of anger I guess...
The hard part about this is what we're going to do with Tristan. He's not used to being away from me for longer than it takes for me to take a shower, even if someone is there with him. Since we're flying and don't want to traumatize him, we're more or less have to leave him at home. But he's become territorial and he's not so sure about anyone but my mom and I. I have to think carefully about who can watch him because they'd need to be here the majority of the time. He also still doesn't know how to use the dog door so my parents want to crate him. He's never been crated here and honestly I was never intending to use it as a way to confine him while the family is out. I'm upset because I don't want my dog treated certain ways and I feel like decisions are being taken from me. I'm going to have to fight with my parents who are already taking out their frustrations on me. My Dad is sick with a cold and it's making him extra-asshole-ish.
Plus, I have to see if Shelli can come by and give Naomi her insulin if I can't teach the person staying here. There's just a ton of work to be done that I don't want to do.
My Mom seems to be holding up okay but I don't think it's going to last. I'm pretty upset that I didn't get to say goodbye. I mean, I begged to go last time and was told no. Now I know the reason they refused was not because I was sick with a cold but because my parents felt I'd be inconvenient to have along with my chronic conditions. That pisses me off quite a bit. I mean seriously? You robbed me of saying goodbye because you wanted to go have lunches and dinners and shopping and you didn't think I'd be up to that? So there's a lot of anger I guess...
The hard part about this is what we're going to do with Tristan. He's not used to being away from me for longer than it takes for me to take a shower, even if someone is there with him. Since we're flying and don't want to traumatize him, we're more or less have to leave him at home. But he's become territorial and he's not so sure about anyone but my mom and I. I have to think carefully about who can watch him because they'd need to be here the majority of the time. He also still doesn't know how to use the dog door so my parents want to crate him. He's never been crated here and honestly I was never intending to use it as a way to confine him while the family is out. I'm upset because I don't want my dog treated certain ways and I feel like decisions are being taken from me. I'm going to have to fight with my parents who are already taking out their frustrations on me. My Dad is sick with a cold and it's making him extra-asshole-ish.
Plus, I have to see if Shelli can come by and give Naomi her insulin if I can't teach the person staying here. There's just a ton of work to be done that I don't want to do.