Don't let the dryness of everything suck you dry.
Sometimes I write things in here and mark them as private. I decided to make it 'un-private' since I found it uncanny that someone sent me a link about this very same topic I'm about to get into.
Don't let the dryness of everything pull you in.
In short ---- times have changed and you can't hold onto water. Anyways, all I'm saying is that I'm not going to let the dryness of what everything is becoming taint what makes me happy. It's even on a large scale that people might be getting this way.. but for the most part, I'm seeing whatever change in my immediate environment. So, what? I can be a bit flamboyant at times. So what? I'm the type of person that makes a humorous scene and get's a kick out of it. So, what? I'm the nut job that laughs at the strangest parts of a movie in a theatre, uncontrollably, that no one else thinks is funny. Yes, I drink through out the streets and climb fences to go jumping in pools with my clothes on. So, what? Well, it's a few things... could be the demographic. I have great happiness in not holding back. It's the cute things in life that matter. It's the ability to give. Whether that be a smile or a hello, it's the ability to not hold back. And the worst feeling of them all for is to hold back out of fear. I feel like this environment does not give you room to breathe.
I am the kind of person that would easily say it how it is, and express myself - but I've gotten shot down so many times for saying the truth that it has hardened me up. Maybe they were lessons as to how I vocalize certain topics. There are ways of saying things. Well, too bad. I've gotten into things at a young age and just because people are conditioned to whatever beliefs they are stuck to, does not mean I should shrivel up inside, or stop my own self growth. With or without, but you can't help but notice what's around you, ya know? Sometimes I feel like I'm walking on glass just to make others around me content. I've felt that way, but there's only so much you can take.But.. that's not showing everything I have to give. I will gladly run through glass with fire blazing underneath my feet.
I was the kind of kid who would fall backwards down the steps, get burnt by an iron and say, "that's it?" You would try to put me in a pen and find me climbing out. What I'm trying to say is.. the more and more I've held back, the more and more it seems to show. And when it does, it's a surprise to people. I don't think I play the politician.. I really hope not. But I do have a tendency to.... sometimes take shit so the peace is kept or say what needs to be heard. But one way or another, I find myself expressing my truth whether it is pretty or not.
I don't know. I don't hide. I do speak my mind. And, I just don't think any of that should change just because surroundings have grown so damp. It's really hard to elaborate on that because it's what I see on a daily basis with people.
You can't really control those things outside of you, just what's going on inside. But again.. I've noticed I have somewhat of an anxiety problem. I don't get panic attacks or anything, but I over-analyze everything (more so than usual, things that really don't matter) and I think that's where the problem is. So yeah, there are great truths which will never change (living moment to moment and so many others).. but yeah, it's easy (if you let it) to get caught in a blur at times.
Don't let the dryness of everything pull you in.
In short ---- times have changed and you can't hold onto water. Anyways, all I'm saying is that I'm not going to let the dryness of what everything is becoming taint what makes me happy. It's even on a large scale that people might be getting this way.. but for the most part, I'm seeing whatever change in my immediate environment. So, what? I can be a bit flamboyant at times. So what? I'm the type of person that makes a humorous scene and get's a kick out of it. So, what? I'm the nut job that laughs at the strangest parts of a movie in a theatre, uncontrollably, that no one else thinks is funny. Yes, I drink through out the streets and climb fences to go jumping in pools with my clothes on. So, what? Well, it's a few things... could be the demographic. I have great happiness in not holding back. It's the cute things in life that matter. It's the ability to give. Whether that be a smile or a hello, it's the ability to not hold back. And the worst feeling of them all for is to hold back out of fear. I feel like this environment does not give you room to breathe.
I am the kind of person that would easily say it how it is, and express myself - but I've gotten shot down so many times for saying the truth that it has hardened me up. Maybe they were lessons as to how I vocalize certain topics. There are ways of saying things. Well, too bad. I've gotten into things at a young age and just because people are conditioned to whatever beliefs they are stuck to, does not mean I should shrivel up inside, or stop my own self growth. With or without, but you can't help but notice what's around you, ya know? Sometimes I feel like I'm walking on glass just to make others around me content. I've felt that way, but there's only so much you can take.But.. that's not showing everything I have to give. I will gladly run through glass with fire blazing underneath my feet.
I was the kind of kid who would fall backwards down the steps, get burnt by an iron and say, "that's it?" You would try to put me in a pen and find me climbing out. What I'm trying to say is.. the more and more I've held back, the more and more it seems to show. And when it does, it's a surprise to people. I don't think I play the politician.. I really hope not. But I do have a tendency to.... sometimes take shit so the peace is kept or say what needs to be heard. But one way or another, I find myself expressing my truth whether it is pretty or not.
I don't know. I don't hide. I do speak my mind. And, I just don't think any of that should change just because surroundings have grown so damp. It's really hard to elaborate on that because it's what I see on a daily basis with people.
You can't really control those things outside of you, just what's going on inside. But again.. I've noticed I have somewhat of an anxiety problem. I don't get panic attacks or anything, but I over-analyze everything (more so than usual, things that really don't matter) and I think that's where the problem is. So yeah, there are great truths which will never change (living moment to moment and so many others).. but yeah, it's easy (if you let it) to get caught in a blur at times.