Previously On...
Seeing as I'm an actual crazy now just like everyone else on the internets I have been given a task from my doctor.
That task is to write a personal history, we're at an early stage in our relationship, he would like to get to know me better... it's one of those exciting stages where anything could happen.
I'm clueless at what to put, so this is one of the reasons why the livejournal has come back to try to get back into the swing of writing about me.
So, shall we jump right back into where we left off?
All way back when in 2006...
So let's see, last real entry I can see I was unemployed and whingeing about not knowing what to do or where to go in my life pretty much.
Wow I would have still been in Ilford then I think...
2006
Had huge panic attack which meant screwing up going to jobcentre so my benefits got stopped as I ignored it all. (Not sure if that was mentioned in a previous entry or not, can't be arsed to check through them that much)
Moved back in with the parentals
Got job in newsagents down the road
Quit drinking
Met my birth brother and sister
2007
Got to know bio brother and sister
(I know brushing over some very big things there with just couple of sentences)
Got threatening letter from housing benefits people about the screwing up benefits in the previous year.
Had to pay them lots of money.
Got job in Stanley Gibbons on Strand in Central London
Started smoking again, I think I made it for about 2 years being quit.
Can't remember much else of prominence in 2007...
2008
Still getting to know bio brother and sister, yes it takes a while...
Discovered Brighton and big love for the place.
Started having no life due to hating Central London after having to get there every day during rush hour and panicking/getting stressed on a regular basis so just wanting to crash at home after work.
Start getting picked up on how much I'm off sick from work due to stress, not that it's often but it's regular.
Lack of social life makes for feeling of not close to many friends in London
Decide to move to Brighton, find job in a tailors I REALLY want but they need someone straight away so hand in notice at work to take risk on trying to get job after informal chat goes well.
Day before interview
Police come round to my house while I'm at work with warrant for my immediate arrest.
They leave a lovely note, like when parcelforce come and you're not at home.
Bio-sister has moved to round the corner from schizophrenic bio-mum and they bump into each other on the street, find this out from a friend request on Facebook from bio-aunt that I didn't even know of before. Make plans to meet them that weekend.
Day ends
Don't do well in interview
Meet lots of bio-family
Sort out arrest warrant as screw up from housing benefits people, turns out they had gone to court in my absence before telling me I owed them money last year. I should have payed it back through the courts but they didn't tell me that... nor did they let courts know I had payed it back.
It gets brushed under the carpet effectively after complaining and stuff.
Not really sure what happened to the court costs that needed to be payed.
Have huge argument with sister (non-bio) and therefore family about silly things that leads to very physical fight with sister where head gets kicked into wall... ow.
Lots of arguing.
I walk out and make myself effectively homeless.
Jen and Owen take me in
Find another job in Brighton, try to move again... gays are useless and flat I was going to move to falls through at last minute.
Manage to make some friends again in London but not any social life still really
Have to turn down job.
Stay in bed for ages but not sleeping and stop eating much until Jen effectively tells me to go to doctor's.
Get given anti-depressants and sleeping pills.
Xmas Eve
Meet bio-nan with dementia -never been to a care home before, they're kinda... unsettling and surreal.
Boxing Day
Have to move back in with parentals as Deev moving in with Owen and Jen and all planning to move and can't afford to rent with them.
Use emotional blackmail to get things I want by letting them know if I don't I will be properly homeless rather than just technically so and crashing round friends.
2009
Start drinking again, I think I made it for about 2 years being quit
Attempting to stop smoking again
Start livejournal again
Be unemployed and whingeing about not knowing what to do or where to go in my life pretty much... again.
There wasn't that such a fun catch up!
That task is to write a personal history, we're at an early stage in our relationship, he would like to get to know me better... it's one of those exciting stages where anything could happen.
I'm clueless at what to put, so this is one of the reasons why the livejournal has come back to try to get back into the swing of writing about me.
So, shall we jump right back into where we left off?
All way back when in 2006...
So let's see, last real entry I can see I was unemployed and whingeing about not knowing what to do or where to go in my life pretty much.
Wow I would have still been in Ilford then I think...
2006
Had huge panic attack which meant screwing up going to jobcentre so my benefits got stopped as I ignored it all. (Not sure if that was mentioned in a previous entry or not, can't be arsed to check through them that much)
Moved back in with the parentals
Got job in newsagents down the road
Quit drinking
Met my birth brother and sister
2007
Got to know bio brother and sister
(I know brushing over some very big things there with just couple of sentences)
Got threatening letter from housing benefits people about the screwing up benefits in the previous year.
Had to pay them lots of money.
Got job in Stanley Gibbons on Strand in Central London
Started smoking again, I think I made it for about 2 years being quit.
Can't remember much else of prominence in 2007...
2008
Still getting to know bio brother and sister, yes it takes a while...
Discovered Brighton and big love for the place.
Started having no life due to hating Central London after having to get there every day during rush hour and panicking/getting stressed on a regular basis so just wanting to crash at home after work.
Start getting picked up on how much I'm off sick from work due to stress, not that it's often but it's regular.
Lack of social life makes for feeling of not close to many friends in London
Decide to move to Brighton, find job in a tailors I REALLY want but they need someone straight away so hand in notice at work to take risk on trying to get job after informal chat goes well.
Day before interview
Police come round to my house while I'm at work with warrant for my immediate arrest.
They leave a lovely note, like when parcelforce come and you're not at home.
Bio-sister has moved to round the corner from schizophrenic bio-mum and they bump into each other on the street, find this out from a friend request on Facebook from bio-aunt that I didn't even know of before. Make plans to meet them that weekend.
Day ends
Don't do well in interview
Meet lots of bio-family
Sort out arrest warrant as screw up from housing benefits people, turns out they had gone to court in my absence before telling me I owed them money last year. I should have payed it back through the courts but they didn't tell me that... nor did they let courts know I had payed it back.
It gets brushed under the carpet effectively after complaining and stuff.
Not really sure what happened to the court costs that needed to be payed.
Have huge argument with sister (non-bio) and therefore family about silly things that leads to very physical fight with sister where head gets kicked into wall... ow.
Lots of arguing.
I walk out and make myself effectively homeless.
Jen and Owen take me in
Find another job in Brighton, try to move again... gays are useless and flat I was going to move to falls through at last minute.
Manage to make some friends again in London but not any social life still really
Have to turn down job.
Stay in bed for ages but not sleeping and stop eating much until Jen effectively tells me to go to doctor's.
Get given anti-depressants and sleeping pills.
Xmas Eve
Meet bio-nan with dementia -never been to a care home before, they're kinda... unsettling and surreal.
Boxing Day
Have to move back in with parentals as Deev moving in with Owen and Jen and all planning to move and can't afford to rent with them.
Use emotional blackmail to get things I want by letting them know if I don't I will be properly homeless rather than just technically so and crashing round friends.
2009
Start drinking again, I think I made it for about 2 years being quit
Attempting to stop smoking again
Start livejournal again
Be unemployed and whingeing about not knowing what to do or where to go in my life pretty much... again.
There wasn't that such a fun catch up!