It's only been what, 2 years?

[cynicismkills]

But it's long overdue. I was digging through old posts and thinking a lot over the past few days, and since I've lost phone numbers this is the only way I can get this out there.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for being such a dick, and treating the only group of real friends I had like they weren't important, when in fact they were all I really had. Now that I've been on the receiving end of the same treatment, I can see even more now how much of a douche I was/am. Especially to you, Shannon, should you read this. You deserved much better treatment than I gave you towards the end, but I didn't see anything past me being scared of a relationship that was working. lolmyspace indeed. No, by the way, those comics don't keep me warm at night.

I'm not expecting to be forgiven, nor to be accepted back into the Azns with open arms. Don't really deserve to be. Hell, you know where I live, you can come here and tell me how terrible I was and why I fail.

There's no real excuse, I was in a bad place and I took it out on the people who were always there for me. I can't make up for that, I wish I could.

I owe you all much more than an apology, but this is the best I think I can do from the position I'm in now.

I'm sorry. I really, really am. You were the best friends I could've asked for and I threw it away because I was stupid.